when someone pull me into wars I have to be a warrior?not a saint,a legend or a savior,but a warrior?feels like ccp wanna Hong Kong to be like this and be set free and be pushed to USA or unite kingdom,any purpose ?
Yesterday I hang pads out for sunshine, and helped parents to hang on pads,too. Dad's fell down on the second floor, and mom said it's shame, I don't understand then I pick it off by stick, she first happy second blame me with neiberhoods about it.I washed dad's pad and it's very dirty for a long time. Now I'm think if they are crazy,I feel I get insane now when I with them.I don't know why they blame an accident and shame someone who fix it For power which they always want to control me and everybody like cpc does here.I feel worse day after day.But i lose strength for someone who promise to marry me in USA.
I try best to make comfortable safe here,but it's not possible.Especially I heard parents talked about killing me after the American breaks his promises time after time when I live with them still after I told them an American says he wanna to marry me and take me to USA for our rest of life.
He can wait but I can't,There are lots of good laws in America, none of laws is about fixing the progress of immgrant?he can tell no response from his embassy and country but I can't.anybody who can immigrant USA is just lucky?I'm feel tired connect you by vpn every time,Basing on the last trust on somebody,his money save our life,but wasting costing killing my spirit.It's more than killing me.he always tell this good that good,he want this he want that, but anything he make or get?Why he use my trust on him to hurt me,I don't understand.I feel bad and tired about his broken promises time after time,What does he wanna from me, my time my life without any responsibility?without any legal laws papers,any bless,Without any touch but just through internet so he will be safe fame nobody threat shame him for me by me who are a Chinese communist from communism country China and naked in front of him for nothing.I told him I join in ccp because dad sold me,he pull me by force me threat me I had no choice but I will not connect cpc anymore will stay away from it as far as I can.do no bad things.but does he believe me?he loves me but just when I'm in China far away from him.
Where is bless for me and his marriage when there is no allows from his embassy or immgrant for me to immigrant in?no.
He play it again.he want me to be there he think it's better he like it it's good,but nothing happen,he never change.he play my feelings all the time when he says I'm doing it when I tell the truth.All illusion, no action.Describ a beautiful future which he never make it come true , he more look like ccp.And wanna me to trust you for some more fun.More delay more I think you wanna me to be here.Is it what he want?
He says what I want is for you to be here no more delay,so, why there is still delay.
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