I have a very important question for me which i don't understand , I hope i can remember it.

and i m thinking that although i think Chinese are horbbits in this virus disasters,if they are not, if they lost their good natures or even don't have any, what will happen to the world?if im wrong,what Chinese is?like the eye on the tower burning?me sucks.

something is born with life, with human being, it can't be changed by times or ages.sometimes it's like genes,sometimes is like fortune.

last night when i wake up in the dark,i felt im falling down into the abyss from the edge of it when i think of dad and mom who are getting old and weak but still work and live hard to be with me,to take care of me without good food and stuffs to be healthy and comfortable, then after they died i will die alone and lonely in somewhere and nobody knows or notices or cares, don't know why I haven't got the bottom of the abyss, either someone holding me back or i have winds to fly,or both of them, or just keeping falling in this deepest abyss in the world.