I still crying now.just tears run out of eyes, can't be stopped.the tears dropped in my lunch and disappeared.everything is just happened after I gave an old woman some sugar candy to eat when she worked for ccp to guard the gate of this area who had diabetes and almost went to coma.

parents tell ccp that im working in another city to stop them disturb me to give them money every year every month.and now they think they are lied and Chinese Party of Communists keep on calling parents of mine and say they need me to give them fee to be communists for one year about 60cny and two year 120cny.my parents worry that if I don't give them them money they will stop send them social assurances every month and it will badly effect their future.I tell all of them them I want and will quit ccp and they refuse.if ccp can eat less food which are bought by these fees with each other or buy stuffs which are gotten by these feeds for free and fire most of communists who are working for corrupting these fees to live on,isn't it right way to feed themselves?no, they never do that,but just rob money from pockets of the others to fill their own's.when dad sold me to ccp by 2 boxes of apples it has already became the way they control me,bully me, destroy me,kill me when I fight back and shame me to be a traitor of their's.mom saw it and said you cry?anybody anything wrong you?don't cook lunch but only want to eat what I buy,this country feed you raise you up,being a Chinese make you feel wrong?your America wants you?no China, no you,shouldn't you give your little money to ccp for help when they need it?I kept silence.i pay most of fee for three of us to live here,now she's so mean for stand by CCP to make her feel better on wronging me like what CCP does.should I give my money which I make to CCP ? to 8,000,000 communists who I even don't know none of them except my dad and my mom who's a member of Communist Youth League of China?they wrong me?they control the rates to get cny by dollars in China which should be above 50cny:1 dollar,now it's 7cny:1 dollar,and still want to rob the rest of money in my pockets!does she know that all the other ways to get cny by dollar is illegal when getting cny by Chinese banks are just sending money to CCP!I want to say go to hell you motherfuckers,but what's the matter,she's already in it.she said so much evil words to me and become angry to attack me, just because I say and tell them that now even hear communism this word it makes me want to gross.

i cried for my cat which was called Gizmo who run to me happily in my dreams.

the cat which can't stay with me in this world without a good right normal justice fame to be my pet,just because I love her,love who and what she was and born to be like that?! i liked her to run to me happily like that,from the very beginning.after CCP is destroyed and disappear always.for it i have to do my best.that's my justice.

love for communism and to benefit self is love, love for cats and empty pockets of self is not?love communism can get money from communists and Chinese Party of Communism,love the others must give money to communism especially when they have power and weapons?ccp gives me money to love it and I don't love it,it's my fault?I pay money which I make and everything to love cats which isn't ccp,it's wrong?everyone has right to love when they are born,why everything is just about money,is ccp insane?it's not fair.

yeah, Communism may be not bad,but evil,and when it has power,it becomes the most evil things in the world.