Im hungry.but I will get some money in next two days, it's a good thing.

after mom quit works we haven't had a nice meal at home for three months.mom gets 1,200cny each month from Chinese government.and I give them 300cny each month from this year for paying fees of water gas and electric which are about 200cny ,internet service which is about 1,200cny every year.i have paid internet service for three years, for three of us.and this country costs me 3,200cny for each year from my money which is zero in the end of each time to buy neccersary things for stray cats and dog, my cats and for myself.I can't reduce things for cats which have already starve and even thirsty.so I need to and can stop buy most of things for me.

I always pick up cheapest things which should be as good as what they look like online in black markets which are called TaoBao and XianYu for us,as long as I can.these things are often booked by others very soon.they are rarely and i need to look for and find and book them fast.and mom often buy food in this way in markets,too.breakfast is over left of last night which is only cooked for dad.lunch is over left,but she cooks bad food,both of us don't like them only when we are starve and hungry.cause it's the only choice.

I only eat one piece of cookie and drink water for lunch.mom is always unhappy to see me eating what she cooks and buys.every year one or two new cloths for me which is below 10 dollars,parents haven't bought new cloths for years,and no big meals which contains meats and fishes,I think she keeps money of hers and dad's for a house to live in which they can never buy in the future which will be too old to work for a living place to and always more and more expensive than how much we have today.but when we get fatal disease communism hospitals will empty all of our pockets with most expensive prices of medicines and heals,if someone is like me who doesn't service Chinese Communism Party in China and have no social assurance and isn't a communist,things are just worst ,it's always a cheat and trap for everyone to be food and tools of CCP,perhaps for parents it is just an excuse to keep their money in their pockets and use me to feed them by mine.so when I warn them not to buy houses but keep healthy by good food before they buy a house after die for starve disease and hunger,she says the money is for healing them from diseases, or says it's for travels, for it's for me after they die,what can they do with this little money,even food is a problem to get by them because of expensive prices in markets.they need to pay fees of apartment which we live from Chinese Party of Communism,whom is rebuilding the whole area here for someday to charge more from us by corruptions, by forces and orders,and have power to kick us out anytime when they like to do.someone said no and fought back were beaten by them and left here with pains.someone who keep silence will pay for their compromises,like us.

how could my parents give me their money when they even don't like me to eat their food?

im thinking of my life, and my cats'.someday after parents die,leave,gone, disappear,no place to live for us,no food to eat,no money to use,nobody gives a hand,with 6 cats and homeless stray animals,in China,live more than death.