yesterday i just cleaned and finished the cat house , this morning when I feed cats there were someone who live around there threw garbages beside it. but a new skinny cat is there,also. I told him welcome,and he must be the dad of the kitten.7 kittens,2 are missing in half a month.and then four are missing at one night,i looked for them everywhere ,but not result.I cried,then I started to build the new shelter for the mom cat and the kitten.when I picked them up and threw them into the garbages box, I m a lot angry,and little sadness.do they hurt the kittens and eat them all?basing on their behaviors throwing garbages beside the cat shelter,i can't stop suspecting like that.

and I met someone who walked with their dogs which always spark at me when she see me.i saw them very far away and I picked up another way to go home for keep her quiet, cause I don't want to wake people around there early by her spark,it's five c'clock.but her owners saw me chosing another way to go, they walked to the another way for blocking me again and the dog was sparking at me again,and the owners made fun on me and laughted,felt like if their dog doesn't spart at me,the dog will get sick.I did say nothing and just looked back at them then left in a hurry.

will all these things end when Chinese Party of Communism disappear? is Chinese Party of Communism the saurce of all these evil things?  Chinese are good and kind and all right? should i thank Communim which makes me see how much bad human being can be on Chinese?or how much bad Chinese can be?I believe lots of Chinese and Chinese foreigners fight against Chinese Party of Communism is because they are scared and fear for what they have done and are especially for Chinese Party of Communism.like what communists do a lot of them need a very very very very big scapegoat this time to live in America and other countries well,safe,happy and lawful.and Chinese Party of Communism is the best choice,so is America.but who can live well safe happily and lawful when their life comes from hell,and have seen lots of seperations in it,death, pains,discriminations,demons.i think i will not.I never can be.

classic detective stories often tell me that when someone are criminals they have reasons,can be understood and forgiven.but what someone do are just too evil to take and accept.why connection among me and Chinese become like this, or why Chinese become like this? when i love cats and someone I need to pay for it to someone else by money and bribe? on their ground? they treat me and cats and who I love in this way,why they expect that they deserve something from me?