I made a dream,in it I was turned into a vampire,but when other vampires blame and curse me--discrimnate me- and were busy killing human being who escaped and scared from me-perhaps discrimnate me,perhaps not- I was still saving human being and going for help when I thought that whatevery i was what for the others or me,I shall still only mind my own businesses to help and save,cause I'm still me.

honestly,when I help cats in China,in my city,I notice something.if helping cats is a right thing,first of all everyone fights against me for it and stops me from doing it,cause they think the money,time, efforts and even a little bit water and food for cats can make their lives better,and should have ownwed by themselves,for their children,their lives,their futres.until someone realize that what happen on cats decide what happen on them,on the others who have connections or ties with them,they start to stop from stopping me helping cats,even help cats once or twice,still for themselves,for what they want.when to do right things for wrong things,is it still right?

i came home from cats, and be saw by mom who sit beside the apartment with the fake Christian neibourhood,then she told dad who came home late again and drunk,and dad asked me why I came home late,then I piss off and said a lot to him:24 hours one day i only have 20 minutes to go outside for taking a walk and you still aren't satisfied and only want me to make money in my room by computer online,is it fair?do i have freedom?if not do I have dignity?do you feed a pig or keep a pig?why you watch me as a spy?how can a human being be when being treated like a pig?even pig is more free and happier than I am.all is bullshit from you.you who owe Chinese banks over 100,000cny can leave home from 6 o'clock then back home at 21 o'clock and anybody don't need to know where you are and no money being made, I can't ask what you do outside of home,and you make me who owe banks nothing but make dollarsfor them stay at home all 24 hours under your control when you know I have nothing to do but feed cats?feed cats, what's the matter,is it bad thing?do I steal, I rob or I make funs with some whores like you male do?

why someone who do good right things are blamed and cursed laughed at and bullied when someone who do bad wrong things are raised and encrouaged and flatterred and supported?what the hell is going on in this country?why only hates and hostility among Chinese?all dark,black is white, white is black, sucks and insane.how about you?feel boring for good right things and feel boring for bad wrong things,too,want to be someone who have already dead,or think you have been already deities?