I dislike parents who make me gross at all.tomorrow will be my birthday. Mr fox sent me a good money for it and cats.It should be my happy day. I  planed to have some noodles with egg which isn't over 6CNY.then my mom says the birthday of kid is hard time of mom to give birth in it.she asks for food,expensive meat,which should be filled th of her big rice cooker ,for thanking her giving me birth .then I bought 100CNY pork for her to cook and her eyes look like starve demons starting at pure souls.I carried 10kg stuffs from markets and Wal-Mart on my way home alone ,feeling like carrying heavy stones,100cny pork for mom,9CNY milk for dad, 1.7CNY salts which mom asked for also,33CNY chicken and cans for cats,18cng orange and peanuts drinks and pancakes for myself, the shot ways to home from feeding cats are blocked by Chinese army,what the hell are all they doing on me? What the fuck is going on here ,why I feed cats when I need to feed parents?then I got home,when I say sorry I'm late for lunch,mom says what I bought for myself is too heavy,she means that I should not spend money on myself but need to save the money to feed her only,so it would not be so much heavy to me to be late by walking slowly ,then she says when she's young she also carried a lot,it's why she hurt her arms.I asked her who don't hurt self when being young for living on, even me who is working harder in it to take care of them now.does she still remember that she always keep telling me the trains she works hard for me when ignoring me is wanting me have a different life like hers,does she remember that she curses me to have a harder life than here when I do my best to have a normal one?then she's happy that I brought pork home and asked me if I had lunch or not,I said I have pancakes,then she says pancakes are garbage to ear,I piss off and told her all food which makes me full is good,they are not garbage.then I realize that she expects me too much and there're reasons that she expects me too much.more she expects on me, less thing she does for me.cause when she expects too much on me,I work more harder than I can do by being pushed for my love of hers to make me run out of myself,when I make it as miracle ,she treats it as normal things for  expecting more to push me more,when I cant make it but normal things ,she doesn't like to disappoint anything on me and just need to blame me for it.for her too much expects which I can't be or do,she doesn't need to feel guilty.they are using me,the day I can't suffer them is the day I leave them ,but when I have nowhere to go,no money no job,nothing to survive here because of their slanders,harms and curses around me like noises,gossips and lies,I m always suffering.Will I ?