Suicide: try to have responsibility by own life, but most of time it's used and wrong.

Escape & hide: will being hunted and caught by more dangerous ones because of someone who are not dangerous but more stupid.

Etc..

Revenge : respect how do yourself feel by actions.

When having mom I could just cherish it,when parents teach me to fight against them who only want all my money by controlling what I say,stopping me having food and behaviors,when I notice that I use all my money for parents and cats parents just want me to abandon cats for getting all money of mine and still blame and curse me that I don't make as much as they like.they have retirement payments from Chinese Party of communism every month, but only want me to pay all bills and food to save all payments of communism.they have washed brains and communism models of life and behaviors, and I still try to feed them, doesn't it suck?

Even when this morning  I told dad that the numbers of dead in coronavirus in wuhan at least one hundred and fifty thousand old men who were over 80 years old are missing in the lists of governments for getting retirement payments in 2020 and even in China is a lie,is much more than Chinese communism official report , parents say just these much, let them die,should die,it's what they deserve to die for communism ,it's honor.just let the dead die.God,help me taking care of this demon.