I thought once I have been hurt by something or someone,I will not be hurt by these kinds of things and people again.

But it's not right.it's like something on me which haven't be changed yet, they are attracting them coming to me again, to hurt me unless I change.

I'm not perfect,so I should be treated like a trash when I make same troubles and mistakes?no.

When they can help me I think they are God's gift for me,so to be God's gift they should always help me instead of hurting me? ignoring me? Shaming me by me who they know,love and respect ? So they are only God's gift when they can help me? God's gift doesn't have another side which is dark,dangerous and even violence when they are human, not God?

God's gift is not God,they are not perfect,but God is.the only help is from God.they can hurt me,but they are never god. 

They are who they are.although wounds are recovered the memories of pains still warn me it's dangerous to keep moving on when I can overcome it now.forgive them, all of them.when realizing that they are all worthy to love,care and respect for me when I'm always not perfect to do it well, for it I forgive myself.