After I watched a Japanese movie, in the end of the movie the daughter told her dad who saved her that she will find someone who loves her as dad does and her dad smiles and thinks about it and says there should not be someone like that, then at dinner time I asked dad who helped me drying cloths I washed is there someone who loves me more than dad does in the world, dad looked serious and gently and said,definitely no, no way.

Movies are not real life,but (real) life is surely more (better)real/great than movies.

I don't want dad to call me traitor to China again,because even if I'm a traitor to China,I never see a traitor to China as bad as Chinese Party of communism.when they are traitors to China they call themselves services of Chinese people to Chinese,even some traitors love their countries sometimes,but ccp is too bad to be traitors.and on one side ccp makes money from Chinese who are told to be taken care by big cheats for fees,on another side ccp connects American to control Chinese by asking for more benefits --technology, invests and political supports ,and by this coercion they move their relationships to America.they make money on both sides but be no loyal on any side, perhaps only themselves and ccp. Who will not keep their loves and themselves staying in somewhere full of their victims for someday they know the truth and revenge by anger? who can do nothing by so called managing Chinese and being paid so big money , assurances and rewards by corruptions every day as and in their jobs?who make too full pockets of 'their' money and even must find other foreign accounts to keep them when the world is suffering pains,hunger and death?traitors to countries. Chairman xi is the biggest traitor of China,so is ccp.I told dad about it,dad smiled happily.don't know why.

If wars start between China and any rests of the world half Chinese especially communists will kill another half of Chinese who want to fight  then the survivors will surround.so is it what's happening all over the world now? 3 million killed by virus?some communists delivered the virus in Wuhan indeed?

I made dreams again I was in a bad place where had full of communists who were female communists bullying me when I worked in the communism military.they made funs of me when I met a male student who had big round face but good to stay with.in the end I said good bye to these communism crazy girls and decided to study English with the man peacefully who looked so gentle and had good manners and lots of patience to me happily.

I should say thank you to him ,but if good bye is necessary, it's fine.