I take care of parents and cats,it's the way I take care of myself.When I get angry I can say anything which makes me shocked.I never thought I m like this before.well done,tin.

Who am I?Am I who?I pissed off that they treat me bad but I still treat them good.I piss off that I just think he's cool a little more by his dick head then suddenly are realized that we can only be friends at all.like a lightening in sunny day.do I need to be tested so much by God?

Love is strange ,when you don't need it and keep still somewhere ,it finds you.when you need and look for it everywhere , it hides.

Am I old? Yeah. I am. So keeping fucking your 36 years old dick when getting old.What the fucking going on here.I don't wanna marry or have bf,more talk with the others about it ,more I feel I'm wired from them and alone or lonely.I should not feel in that way when I'm alone.I only want to marry God and till the last day of my life comes.

Even when I feel I'm dying it's more better than now how I feel.they laugh and smile with me like sweet kids, but they are kids who still explore new things and good future,I'm not. I'm a fool in their eyes who is busy putting useless money in my pocket whatever they do and think to me.I don't care what they think about me,but the point is that is it real better to stay inside of China and firewall like a horse being ride in the garden or like a wild horse running in the forest.the answer is no.

Just thought to find someone who doesn't care materials money or house cars power so much  to marry is more easier in America, now it's getting more harder .then it's so difficult for me it means everything starts over again,more complicated.but comparing to someone I met in China, their insists can not hurt me so that much .