Why I adopt 6 cats, why they are not kids,birds,dogs or something else?

When I was a girl about 10 years old I had 6 dolls,one was around 60cm tall and others were around  8cm tall.I loved them very much.the taller doll stayed with me when I was born,and nobody could remember who gave it to me,or bought it ,perhaps it's dad.but he can't remember ,neither.she could cry,when she was lying down her eyes were closing.I still miss them after dad took her away when I was sick and I gave the smaller dolls for birthday gifts to classmates.

I remember that when I slept with them in bed they were so cold,it's cold to hug them,cold to hold their hands,cold to kiss them everywhere, like they never were alive before.I don't like it,I talked to them and said if you are cats that would be great, I could feel your temperature,I could hug you warmly,I could tell you what I was bothered by.

There must be deity or God who hear everyone's prayers all the time.and they hear me,also.many many years later I adopt 6 cats,they are warm to hug,spiritual to play and easy to kiss on lips in my bed.but I still miss my dolls more.if I insisted on keeping my dolls , what would happen in my life, what would I be now?what should has been my life like? 

I think my dolls and toys come back by being these cats,which I can't sell,abandon or find some others to adopt them anymore, again, whatever what excuses I make.everything we lose in our lives comes back in some other ways which we can't know,understand or recognize,sometimes they are good, sometimes they are bad.so keep staying in the circles or cut off the loops,different ends.when everything in our lives is given to us,there must have  meanings.

I bought toys also when I was a kid.these homeless cats just make me feel that they exist for me when I'm alone,like that I met them before.but how about men and females,even males? they come back to hurt you when you have hurt them a lot in my life, do you think even one of them could be so nice to love and marry and have a kid with you who hurt them to death ? You are not in heaven yet.for what you gain you need to pay it first.You refuse them and they come back again, that's not a good idea for hurting yourself.