[3:18.6.7.2021]I made dreams. In a big white college A young rich asshole caught a baby boy and forced it to be horny and let him to fuck his ass or he would ask his beaters to kill him.then he tried to rape me who's running out of the college and met another men, perhaps we all were student,with a baseball bat to protect me and fought them back.can't believe I dream this after grandma's death.anything about the wound on the neck?

As usual,whatever how hard I try to be kind to anybody around me in real life or on the internet, fox,snake,hedgehog,nobody say anything about my grandma's left. How bad I treated them in their lifetime and wanted to hurt them in their eyes.Nobody says I'm sorry you lost your family or I'm with you when what happened in my life yesterday , nobody says don't worry everything will be okay and she's in heaven now, but only try to hurt me back by means ,sick and speechless things when I'm weak sad and loneliness.that's why I don't have families,friends or lovers. I don't wanna to tell how failure for me to be a person,but how bad all this bullshit is,more bullshit than politics,that's why I would rather to talk about politics than to connect so called human being.

Looks like my body will become very very very ill this time.I can't be too sad.although bad things always come together.perhaps not all bad things yet. Perhaps it's why I'm on the internet and use vpn to meet them again.know 3 men in 5 years, it can't be too fast.so why I still don't marry ? I'm not in/on/being a heart of anybody.