1.I often send food to cats when there are people as few as possible on the roads in the streets. cause Chinese have circles, they make lots of noises. parents tell me it's shame to help cats when I have no job, house, cars  and 37 years old single.I don't see anything I should feel shame about everything which parents feel shame. because in communism China nobody could marry ,have kids and live on without believing in Chinese party of communism, but I still don't give up.everytime when they are heard that I still take care of cats they piss off and start to curse , stop and blame me for it. I don't see any business between this and that.but Chinese indeed make too much noises on me when I tell them I don't wanna my parents to know what I do on cats when these strangers who live around me always want to know what and why I do it,and who I am, how much money I make every month,where do I work,and who are my parents,where do I live .they talk about everything to everyone they know and don't,until they don't know and know.every time when I don't wanna someone to know something,they always know because of Chinese.just because I don't like to obey any of th who always want me to obey them by forces and enforces including rape.they even could rape me when I didn't wanna to sex with them.that's why I never have a friend,or family I think.

Perhaps I attract someone by my emotion on cats,they like to do it because of what I do.but unfortunately they are villains.I don't like to see them helping cats for having fun,or just feel boring of being alone.and don't wanna to know they don't wanna me to do it better,just because they are older than me and I need to do worse than them for respecting their ages.like that cb charge me 25 dollars each time when I cash ,but in its rules it says it only needs 1~3 dollars.it means I need to work 13 months a year if I cash twice a month for paying the fee to cash first.25 dollars*12=300dollars.they wanna to be more happier than I am when I'm in cb,so everyone could look for it first then looking for me instead.someone depress others by age,by morality, someone depress others by fee,by enslavement.Chinese communists think only their power could have sex,porn,much money,so they use power to control sex,porn, money of the country.power is only their tool.cb corrupts my happiness , joy and trust in cb.money is only their tool for it,too.

2.Perhaps God is both known things and unknown things .although people often fear unknown things, but be proud what they know.saint family is still family.

3.Mom is human, human has cruel side. If I want to protect my kid, anything I love, my cruel side is for it also.I should not make it stay away from me, or let it go.it makes me understand my mistake again about the abort of rape.kid wasn't a mistake.I made.its life was taken for m3, it's the worst thing in the world.

4.why Chinese Party of communism doesn't admit the virus comes from China,from WuHan lab and be remade by Chinese communists? I don't know.but be careful.there's a communism demon of public media in it: 

→virus comes from and be made in China,wuhan by communists,

→Chinese Party of communism is virus,Chinese is virus,

→virus(Chinese and communists) can't be stopped, can't be killed, they become normal,

→human can't let virus(Chinese and communists) go but live with virus(Chinese and communists),

→virus(Chinese and cimmunistts) isn't made or comes from China by communists,wuhan,

→virus(Chinese and communists) come from 'nature',

→you can't win 'nature',

→you can't win virus(Chinese and communists) which come from it,

→you will lose in any war which fight against virus(Chinese and communists) which come from 'nature'.

First,Chinese and Chinese party of communism are the virus makers, but they are Not virus.who make virus need to have responsibility.for every life die in it. but virus doesn't need to, it just needs to disappear.who wanna to live with virus makers and their virus, they must be crazy.because they live virus makers this time,next time the extinct ones are only themselves like virus.  gossip comes from people, national news cover mouths of theirs up by another gossip.

Second,The virus indeed kills a lot of Chinese in China who were sacrificed by Chinese Party of communism.but the virus makes a reason for Chinese abroad who actually are communism to stick abroad on where they are sent on decisive parts after the world starts to resist Chinese communists,China and Chinese  together in 2019 when Trump who were framed and left white house by these communists later started it nationally. Like whats happening now when Taliban terriots hide in chaos with crowds to go to America.From 2019 Chinese communism governments don't care death of Chinese in China and locked most of them down but fear few of Chinese abroad come back from the world.they don't care life of Chinese, but need appointed somebody to be where they are.

It's totally political and target even for a  very long time.communists know they will not win wars in front of America,so they are cutting it on its back,by anesthetized their minds first.

5.it's greedy that you want good things happening on you when you haven't done good things plenty.it's ridiculous that you wanna good luck when you don't have balls or encouragement to take a chance.whatever to have a house,place to settle or not,wherever you are and live,isn't better than having a safe peaceful,happy life.when you are stubborn,make sure you are stubborn on good things.