after I grew up dad was sad when looking at me. he said when he saw me carrying a big bag full of communism books to go to school as a little girl, his heart is broken.but I know he didn't say anything about it when I went to communism schools. he almost kicked me out of home to go to communism schools everyday when I don't want to . I don't know if he knows they are all communism schools or not. but I know, and I know I don't wanna to be there anymore because of communism.

i think comparing to mom who thinks she shouldn't given me birth, dad thinks I'm born to be a tragic when I have to live.my mom is like some Chinese who save their money which they made by labor works for corruption in communism banks and want interests of the banks by them.dad is like some other Chinese who borrow or corrupt money from communism banks and owe them for their so called businesses. but they are both not in extreme status in China of lives. they are against each other basing on this country system, according to communism politics. I mean to stay between one side and another side of them.

 

I don't like flirts when someone think they don't. cause I don't flirt when they think I do.fet has reasons to spit in my pussy now,cause i spit on his grave.

 

I thought if corruption disappears ,someone and their works which are corrupted would be getting well again.but no, when they are corrupted, they are greedy and would like to take advantages more .they would not feel enough about the payments of jobs, but work for corruptions only.their aims never are about jobs, what they do,or what they get paid for works anymore , but what they could get and corrupt by them ,it explains why some employees do no thing in their jobs for years,but still retire normally and get their retired payments after it ,they use what they corrupt to corrupt others for themselves .the payments are only their 'legal' income on the lists for being taxed, what they corrupt is what they love .perhaps all Chinese jobs are in the same ways now.it means once someone is corrupted ,especially by communism , they can't be used anymore.although what's damned is the corrupted system first .

Rebuilt the shelter in new corner for cats kittens, still have details to take care.very happy for the roof which is fixed when only found small pieces of wood and glasses to use,and turn into a sunshine shelter in winter.