[18:00,Oct 8,2021] will Chinese communists attack Taiwan someday? If they need to make America and other countries scared and depress Chinese in China to keep on being loyal to them , they will.if it happens,if you don't work for Chinese Party of communism but for this country , just hope communists lose, or Chinese and this world will suffer more than today .wars need money and materials, it's another way for communists and their soldiers to corrupt.  lots of Chinese will die those days for them only.

I don't wanna to make friends or foes with my dad,or anybody , but it's a bad time, time makes us come together.I told him be careful of what you believe, someday more you believe , faster you become crazy and get mad for truth.and the worse ending is killing yourself.don't be loyal to communists, keep a back-up way for yourself.

He smiled and said there's no possible to see the progress for communists and communism Party crashing down for both of us.yes , I say I know it's a long time , and I'm also in this big history you and me are just parts of the process, I hope we are the ends of it.Nobody can stop history keeping moving on but being crushed completely.

Someday if I could go abroad or immigrant I want to be a detective , only find truth and corrupted employees of governments.I don't work for governments, but God.if I couldn't, I want and must do the same things.

Morality and communism.communists use morality to rob people especially good ones and let morality take care of themselves. Killing someone by hands of others.some Chinese are not Chinese anymore today.

[9:00]I talked with someone online, and I think it's worthy to write down them what I said.so I record them here.he helped me thinking in this way. Thank him.

I watched my parents getting old everyday.indeed feel losing them and can't image when they are fine someday how do I connect them by calls.like a horrible movie.when someone who live with me from my birthday suddenly disappear in front of me,would I suffer it and not get mad or feel being defeated by my own life , would I strong enough to live on alone?

Perhaps love means when life is lonely it's not alone when you are with someone who love you and you love .when there's lov3,never alone.

Love is from heart, not head.even brain damages and forgets, heart works well, love can't die until life ends.

Is love beautiful or cruel, is love beautiful because it's cruel, or love makes life beautiful, when no lov3, life is cruel?

Perhaps love is part of life, even death can't stop it when life's gone.that's why love exists.or how does it exists.that's why love's from God.

Someday my parents will leave me , it's made me scared for a long time.now I'm still disturbed ed by this feeling.Perhaps I'm still not growing up when I should have yet.that's why parents still worry about me and getting older mode quickly ,perhaps not.

Then he said something light me up and make me feel sad about it and wanna to cry, he says God is love.

[9:37]prepared and cooked some food for cats tomorrow.chicken livers, chests and soup, with some nutrition powders.