{3-49,2-11,2022}

I say I love fox, love America everyday, but watching and making them suffering and depressing day after day. How could I call it,how could it be love,how could it be called love so much, so frequently, so long?

Romans 8:36
[36]As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.

Fox indeed doesn't wanna to live on anymore because of guilty deeply inside for last marriage or his ex wife?

{20-34,2-10,2022}

at dinner my dad said I'm sorry I didn't become a powerful communist but a communimsm unknown soldier to make you like Eileen Gu or Meng Wanzhou, famous, rich and powerful having better lives in America.I told him, no, don't need to. Thank you for not being like that, then my dad looked proud.I guess he doesn't become too bad because of protecting me from communism,perhaps sometimes parents only wanna their kids to survive.for me to survive in China they have done everything they could for 60+ years. I could feel it when I check stray cats,too. Or he understands with my nature or characters I would already be killed, disappeared or mad in communism jails by communists if similar spy missions of stupid bitches' communists was mine.and he starts to realize one reason my mom tries too hard to push me into communism Party is because she doesn't wanna him to blame her who's not or wants to be more higher level background communist when she's born than being a common communism worker's daughter.but as I know grandpa her dad was an outstanding carpenter and a good dad.

Perhaps,my parents knew I would quit Chinese military job which they bought and they still bought it by their money.they just don't believe someday Chinese Party of communism will fail.

Everything has its means, in God, or by God's will, how could human know them well when they are human who don't know? So why cost time on arguing about them, talking about them, fight against for them or become parts of nothing for them to hurt God? whatever Eileen Gu, Meng Wanzhou, or many unknown communists in China and the world, and me, their existences have means. Perhaps someday the most proud weapons for Chinese communists will be the most fatal mistake of it -perhaps the one who wanna China to fall most is Russia by standing by China to make it happen, or fall with China together.

Who can tell- if someone's life which is raised ,benefited and made by communism ambition, purpose and plans can give up the communism money pipes to live on, to survive, to be a human kind,that's why they can be only tools to be sacrificed forever.

{9-17,2-10,2022}

when someone use rules for themselves and make them become new rules, either break rules, or change rules. Is there the thrid way out? It should.

When communists appear in China, morality changes , not the ways to stay with young, lead them to truth, but the tools to control them, tempt them to darkness.

Country is a political word. Now so is home .

Talked about Eileen Gu with my dad, I said she's another communist like Meng Wanzhou who's daughter of Huawei company boss having 7 passports as being a Chinese. a Chinese communism spy who's cutting in America for a corrupting system and fell country which is called China. He can't deny it.