{5-02,3-3,2022}

it's strange that men always say women are so stupid that women are so easy to be lied and even a word could makes women believe and fall in love with men when each of them wanna to do the same things on women, too.

At least I don't raise up cats and help them by words only.

Why I was sex harassment by strangers on my way home, in buses, why I was sex assaulted by dad, why I was raped by cousin, I don't like sex, I don't like fuck in my life, I don't like making love because of depressing , isolated and communism life, love and country. Could anybody change it by penis, could I change it by fucking myself, could somebody change it by shows? 

Whatever happened, happens or will happen, I don't have special feels  , emotions on or wanna sex when I have strong sexuality with born always it doesn't mean I'm a cold blood, bitch and even a physical patient for everything.

{9-41,3-3,2022}

Someone sell passion, poison, politics, cheats, betray,body,  knowledge, sell books, face,young, age, technology, wisdom, sex, and I sell sexuality. Cool, I feel sexuality is digging my heart every day and this deepless hole is going to somewhere. Never feel satisfy on sex, even in love I only focus on sex when I feel sad, painful depressed and lost instead of genders or relationship or blood ties.Never make love for me for real, only sex games and have fun and for live, sometimes I feel I'm a vampire which only wanna blood and never understand what is love. Anybody's fault that they don't love me and they always say even I pay them to sex ,to love , to marry ,to live with me they never do that.I could communicate only by sex, I'm sorry for that.

But I never give up.

When human believe something, they have lives like something. They believe communism, they live in barren land.they believe demon, they live in hell, they believe God, they live in heaven.it's never about where you are, how do you live. The only difference between Chinese and African is that Chinese want to cover their barren ground by expensive stuffs when African want to show them up by what they need.

Communism for me should has been something sharing what communists have, especially things which could benefit the whole world and life, universe and even God, instead of taking away what they don't have from any others for benefiting only themselves.

China and Chinese party of communists, you make a big mistake.