Dad tried d to stop me going outside for a walk in early morning.I know he doesn't care me but only suspects me feeding stray cats and wants me to listen to him and stop ,actually I do.but if I can't do what I love to do but being controlled by a communist,it's a shame for me.And I can't suffer it anymore.then he curses me for everything and curse me to be sick in rest of my life,curse me to die.I asked him wether he curses everybody who he can't control,he doesn't deny it.he admits it silently.it's sad someone who believe in deity use power of belief to curse good people and someone who do right things.it's wrong to tell Chinese have no belief when their belief is evil today , when they turn into bad,when they pray that bad guys to be punished and punishments are on themselves instead of bad guys,when only bad can fix bad,is it good??is it hell??or human life??when communism is in China to control everything,why I'm just taken money I make by it?why more of Chinese become poorer in pockets when few of communists become more richer in pockets than before,forever??communism is something making less and less rich men more richer and more and more poor men more poorer??