To be a police needs to make criminals happen,I think it's why my cousin who raped me become a Chinese police after he raped me,it's rule of Chinese governments.like that to become a Chinese government employee and communist you need to corrupt or be corrupted.like a mark on a fallen angel to service demons.Chinese police are for Chinese Party of communism.and my cousin even fears not to service Chinese vommunidm,so he raped me to be a Chinese police,it's why I laugh at him always ,he's a coward.And I cry for my baby which is aborted,it's innocent,the best gift from it for mother's day is death and kill itself for its stupid bad mad and sad mom who even do not deserve it,my baby,mommy loves you,mommy doesn't wanna to hurt or kill you.mommy is wrong,mommy miss you.

Perhaps everything has something connect with my life in China .I was born in 80s,those years had family planning which lots of babies were killed by Chinese communism government,I heard that my mom lost a baby also  before me,but then who told me scared to tell me more and rush away when she saw my face which didn't know anything about it.I think it's forced by government which she fears also.the rape honestly force me to keep looking for the truth about the baby.I still remember that mom said my grandmom hated me born as a girl when she blamed mom that why it's a girl,Again.that baby it's a girl,my sister.it makes my parents hate me a lot especially when I want freedom and get out of control .they love that baby still,and push all responsibility on me even when Chinese governments which they thank and be loyal murder my sister.they are crazy but still have expects on me.if they don't fight against Chinese governments they will not forgive themselves when they are alive.