Laws, morality, they are something which cover truth up.they cover up how much bones of dead being killed under human's feet,cover up how many life which are saved above human's heads.

human always live in nihility until someday they die when they either are called by light or fall into darkness.

laws and morality keep them living in world and feeling like a baby in moms' womb without being touched by the world which their moms are in,keep them feeling like living in a greenhouse which keep them away from storms and hurts,but which never exist.

between heaven and hell,illusion and reality,lies and truth, shows and facts,only a piece of thin film for me.

as a victim of criminal and demoralization I can see laws and morality are obeyed and followed only to protect somebody else which only need me to obey and follow by others' ignorance and isolation,heartless blame anger torture curses to me instead of who do bad things on me.it makes me feel shits happen on me for destiny, for punishments because of that I dont listen to them, trust them,obey or follow the 'truth',feel like listening to them,trust them obey and follow them is destiny,it's 'true' whatever how much hurts and suffers for me. most of human obey and follow them for getting taking benefits and power from somebody to protect themselves ,and they know it.

When they tell you laws and morality are for your own goodness they are always telling lies.obeying laws and following morality are the only ways to keep connects and relationship,even blood ties with each other, for somebody else,to get something from them for themselves.

Rarely human fight against all of these.and rare of them can make it.

To sacrifice each others for satisfying self,under the name of laws and morality, for telling self it's doing right thing and being a good man.it hasn't been on God 's way to go for a very long time.

A philosopher says life is like a rabbit, someone live in fur of this running rabbit (like fleas?), so some other 'fleas' hold fur of the rabbit to travel the world like passengers? But how does rabbit feel? Are fleas and rabbit equal? Who can pat it and makes it feel being loved and good,safe and happy, why it runs and what where it runs for ? who's demon and who are playing it like God?

I Have read tweets of some Chinese in America and other foreign countries for almost half a year when coronavirus appears in China and spread the world.after being washed brains in China they seem still to wash their own brains even when they are not in China anymore.I think they seem like internet refugees who can't belong to both their motherlands and where they live in trail life. some of them get crazy and enjoy chaos,some of them fall and focus on start wars,someone join in, someone cut off.and someone even fight against their past to overcome today for the future when the only way for me to win the past is to accept it first. but is it all real? Anyone who are taking 'advantage' of or being paid by Chinese Party of Communism to do it for disturb, even destroy America,even the world?

Why I think all I write is all bullshit and even evil when I read after it finished ?? Yeah, just little evil bullshits, I feel little better,hope to have some sleep now.

So am I a huge wild dragon being trapped in the pools? No,perhaps I'm just a little Chinese bug on a big road,one step of a human being like rainbow is much even longer than the whole journey of my lifetime.