I'm sad for the cat which was called Gizmo.this morning she's in my head,again.

If I didn't listen to my parents and piss off by them, she might not die, I was tempted and harmed by their poison behaviors.and it made me lost her.

Yesterday I argued with mom again.when I started to give them money every month, she said what the terrible jobs you do online, go find some communism jobs to make me proud instead of shaming me in front of neibourhoods in this way,go to be a teacher,go to teach Chinese for foreigners to make me happy, I like you to be a teacher.I know that she only wants money,cause a sister of my dad who is a teacher has several houses to live, she envys her or she likes her and shame me by her,in her minds teachers can make lots of money in China, so should I. I don't know why Chinese teachers can make a lot of money in only teaching Chinese or something else.but I know all Chinese teachers are working for CCP to limit all creativity of their students and they are all demons , and demons from hell now. cause I know when she's a little girl the most cheapest job was a teacher when MaoZedong's alive and lots of good teachers were killed in culture revolution.after that there's no any Good teacher in China anymore. perhaps she's one of them to sell teachers to ccp. to be a teacher for Chinese coming from China or being in China mean selling souls to ccp first when they have nothing to teach their fucking students by what they fucking have and are , only taking from CCP and feed their students by drugs and posins.these mother fucking damn communism bullshits.I don't wanna to be it or do it anymore for any fucking CCP!I don't make fucking money of communism in this way for their own benefits by killing personanlities and creativities of everybody! now for money without appologize my mom just wants me to be a teacher,for everything to make her happy should I die immidiately when she wants me to?then I told her I do a job online by translation and it makes much more than being a teacher to teach Chinese.to be a teacher is too hard for me and I don't suit it.then she looked suprised,and suddenly turned into a good mother and say don't focus on teaching but do best on translations. she doesn't even care me or what I do,only money.she has too much fucking expects on me and too suitable for being a communist from 1957 when she's born till now ,just because she's too good at creating fucking contradictions for CCP! more she does it to me,less I want to move.

I don't wanna to do anything for them anymore.but she tries her best to make anything which I do to be her expects.if I tell her that i never do translation, but something else. will she happy? it will be the biggest joke to laught at her by it.

I do not do everything for them,whatever how has been my life turned to be.perhaps if i listen to my parents and obeyed to service CCP military obediently,my mom's nephew would not rape me after I told him to find jobs on his own and stay away from CCP.that is so fucking interesting.