my mom often blames that I make her worried and piss off all the time.but when i asked her yesterday she just smiled and was unhappy at the same time.because I asked her if the reason for her worry about me and piss off by me at the same time is because she thinks that she has all good cards(like me and dad,and herself) in her hands but why she plays them so badly and all won by the others?to blame others playing cards better than she does? everyone playing cards which are called lives for the first time in life. too much expects by communism, too much lost in self.

made two dreams in these two days, one was that I was with few American to escape from huntings of communism monsters, and I didnt wanna to go through China on the way, but no other ways to take for us.so I said just taking the way of YuanNan where's next to Myanmar,there are wars in Myanmar,more covers to escape from hunts.

another one was that a male student in communism college was cut off balls by his teacher to stay with him.some students who aren't have so much talent are tempted by money to sell life for working for their teachers or masters, some students who have a lot of talents are tempted by loveand relationships to sell their hearts and souls to demons,like their teachers or monsters.