Why I'm still alive after rape, why I'm still living on after lots of bad things happen in my life,why I still haven't went to hell yet.why there are many people die who should not die when there are many people live on who should not live ? Am I just too strong to die? Am I not worthy to die? Why I think everything I do is all right? Why I m catching something which is nothing when there's nothing to catch?

I m sorry Mr foxy.I'm sorry everyone.cause I don't make mistakes,and there's no more when I keep moving on.nobody has responsibility or duty for me, they don't owe me anything.I can see without me how beautiful their lives&life will be and is.

If die hard,why still live,shouldn't it be so hard always ? Best curse for demons  on me?