I found a mom homeless with 9 kittens in an abandoned building which is nearby garbage box after she was jumping out the garbage to take some orange peels from it for feeding them.

I was complaining to deity and God that why lots of kittens again to take care ,to feed and to heal in the beginning years ago and prayed everyday no more kitten, stop giving birth, no more tragic and tears and heart break in my eyes which need to worry,to be sad,to die or to be gives up unless all of them need to be adopted.now I think I'm wrong.totally wrong.

It's bless from God for these cats and kittens.God,nature and the earth are too high to refer to for me.many life come to this world every day,every second,they never say no,or refuse,or step back.they make it happen.what could I do for it? only human say God punishes someone who do bad,nature gets angry about what we destroy, the earth can't suffer anymore about human but explode.all of them are wrong.even when human do bad God still loves them,even when human destroy nature still gives, even when the earth has human it still takes care of them for a very long time.they come to this world by blesses,after either suffering or enjoying or sighing,worrying,crying,laughing,singing,smile,they go back where they belong to.what could I do?

Yesterday I heard from mom and knew who kicked the homeless basement cat out which was killed by stray dogs with all wet body when they were sunny days and no rain.the woman who told me it's an abandoned basement where was safe for the cat did it when I asked her if I could open the door and took the kitten out.she used sodium hypochlority to attack the cat and after the cat left she uses the basement to keep the chicken she bought last month inside for eggs. In a rainy day after someone threw the water and food bowl for the basement cat away I helped her finding her chicken back when someone broke her door of cage to let the chicken out.I put new bowls on the windowsill when I heard the basement cat meow to me for response.now I know why,someone knew what she did to the bowls and revenged her to make her lose the chicken.two days later all Windows are blocked and the basement cat was missing.

I wanted to burn the basements down and throw shits in the door of theirs.but I don't.it's not worthy for the basement cat,not worthy for all love it gave to me,not worthy for all things and moments we shared with each other together,but only worthy to do good for cats,treat them well and love them always.

Is it effected by Buddha that it's why Chinese are always some one who kill what they save,hurt what they care,and use what they love,destroy what they believe,lie to what they trust and betray what they are loyal to,etc? Why is and what makes everything a circle for them to lock themselves inside to feel so fucking safe,superiority and sick?

Someone told me he doesn't know why you don't have money but still buy food,meats and cans for all cats,stop using meats and cans to make them lazy,it's your fault they die for hunger.it's your money.you use them.in fact I want to know also.it's like someone call me for help when I meet them. and I don't know if it's my money or not,but I'm sure I wasn't born with it.I never have money, they haven't been parts of my life for a very long time.