I made some strange dreams last night.

First I saw a white light moving in the darkness,it seems like that it has life,but not ghost.then there was a young foreigner who visited me in China coming from America.he stayed here for one week,before he left he wanted to visit a factory which made honey of bee in HeBei by trains which was called Kalimeris indica in Chinese,which is this plant,

 

I didn't know it's name until today,I saw lots of them in my childhood and love this flower.

Then in dreams after the American man returned America and he messaged me on Skype and told me that:

Don't scared to be sad,to be bad, to be worst,they make you human completely , it's seed of plants.plant them under your ground.

Everyone wants the best, joy, happiness,success,light,top of the world ,etc.Anybody want the worst, hurt,sadness,failure,darkness and bottom of it?

Find myself, find the truth,find anything.but how about they are all games of philosophy and politics and purposes.I Am Myself,Truth is just in me.why do I need to find anything for someone else?know myself? If I tell you what is myself ,do you know if what I know is myself or not? What do you want from me?

When I need to take something which are important for someone else for what and who are important to me,it's crime.when I have to live in such a world which need me to hurt others for my loves,it's crime.when I need to let someone hurt, suffer and die to make me survive, it's crime.

If America is heaven for criminals which teaches and punishes them by making God's laws to obey for hiring servants , China is hell for them which controls and imprisons them by creating communism rules to break for collecting lackeys, all for themselves .it's just a fucking game.