I want to know why Chinese choose communism ways to go from the very beginning which is a dead way in the end.Perhaps they never wanna to live, like Biden does.perhaps they are too kind to be harmed of backstabbers.suddenly miss Trump.

More growing up,more pains, more lies, it's why I don't wanna ?Everything will become more harder and crazy and terrible ,nobody cares me and cats till the end?I thought the reasons why everyone who leaves me gets better live is that they love me,but a movie tells that they hate me,wanna to revenge me who leave them?

Either that movies is based on life,or that life copies movies .why my life must be as same as a movie to be liked for making benefits for living ?I don't wanna to be a movie,although i want to have an end nnow in it.I wanna to be out of this movie for me.it sucks that life is just a movie.

Never image someone to masturbate.cause if I can't sex with them, I will not be me but some image for me always.

I'm not shit,not beggar,not homeless,not whore,not teacher,not friend,I'm not me,whatever anybody trusts or not.

Someone believe divination and even in God.Just because some times they want them to happen,they wanna them to be real,some other times, they just don't .without progress there's only result,can see the future but still must experience it again, what kind of fucking life it is.