[18:32.6.6.2021]dad hurried to drive his car to go to check grandma after mom's phone call.mom said grandma stoped breathing right now.

In the afternoon they say all families visited grandma today in the morning when it's a Sunday.information spreads fast among Chinese.mom asked dad in the call how could it be so fast when they prepared for months to take care of grandma till the end.

The first thing I don't understand is that when I saw grandma lying in bed in the morning I saw her eyes were covered by mists.they were grey,no light.I kissed her headache three times and prayed for her in my minds,and told her God's with her, loves her and leads her way home and don't scared, her breath started to be smooth after she's hard to breath,lights came back into her eyes again.she looked out of the window, blue sky and white clouds, peacefully,looked like already being in heaven looking at angles,she could feel pains and starts to yell instead of being numb .I helped parents cleaning her body,changed clean cloths and pads,sent location of the apartment then left by mom's request.she says she's scared when night comes with grandma.but I am not,I don't feel anything wrong when I was with her.

The second strange thing is that after I came back home, I feel too tired,I ate a lot, three bread, two bowl of noodles and one tomato.I did too little things with grandma but I feel too tired ,feel like running out of my strength.

The third thing is that I then feel hurt on the neck after I got home .there is a wound appearing suddenly,I don't remeber where I got hurt by anything or where it comes from .only cross necklace on my neck which should not.hurt my in this way.it looks like being bite by a snake, or a vampire.I  took a bath and it feels little better.I put antibiotics on it now it's not turning into darker.it doesn't make me feel wired until dad asked me back when I told him about it:is it so much fast?

Grandma's 90+ years old.as a Chinese it's a very long lifetime.still remember that in 2009,in  5 minutes ago before my first cat dies in my arms my left arm had serious rash.after I buried her all the rash was gone.