Hate, complain, blame, no. I'm not perfect, can't do these to any others anymore.

God,don't take fox away,he saves me and , some cats live in China because of his faith in you.he can't get sick, can't get ill,can't die,yet. I should, I'm a better choice for your to take, I know he may have another woman connecting , but it's my fault.I should make it clear that I will not use him to marry, to go to America, to be used by someone for me when I don't believe they will happen as he tells every time .I should have refused him every time when I just don't wanna to hurt him or break his heart or steal his soul.I should have burned all diaries which I wrote in 25 years including rape for his advisement and trust him that everything will be all right for a new start. Cause he's blessed by you. I know also. I will not marry him, but I can be his friend.he's a good friend , he can be. If they love each other.let them be. Not their fault.he's not alone. let him live.it's not his time yet, I know it ,he fights for America , he's loyal to it, he flies to China with you and changes a lot of things as a miracle from you,although he doesn't like Biden and democracy party,he still fights for trump who fights for America still, give him back to us completely,I still have lots of things to do with him,lots of words to talk,lots of things to laugh together, he shared everything in his life to me, now it's my time to share everything with him. Everything I have,save him,he's a hero like all American soldiers do and did,thank you.

Just focus on the truth, no problem.some Chinese philosopher said, 'appetite to eat and desire of sex are nature of human being.the nature is that wanting to eat delicious food is not only for fix hungry stomach, wanting to sex beautiful bodies is not only for having kids to carry on family's name.this wants and selfish are nature of human being,  It's as similar as animal'. and another Chinese philosopher said ,no,' human being have goodness which are different from animal.mercy, personal loyalty,polite and wise'.if Chinese cooks or food is a talent art, how about Chinese sex? When they both are used to make money for live or survive in communism China, how can it be freedom?