Another kitten which looks like the kitten died yesterday appears this morning meowing for food.so I think it's not the missing kitten in another place, but the kittens live here near by my apartment. Another homeless cat in another place is missing for about one week.she's a mom white mom, she gave birth for 9 kittens which I found in the communism empty building and she never gives up her kids even when she's weak and skinny and hungry.she takes food for her kids every time and eat last.even when kittens are growing up and rob her food which I prepare for her she never beat them but let them eat first and turn to me for more other food sweetly.where is she? Every time when I call her she jump out from anywhere and meow to me , walk and run to me and pet my legs . I found a big rat beside the food bowl for her last time . And now her kittens which are 3 left are around garbage box for food without staying around her by her callings. Is she okay? Give her back to me.too many sadness this years, grandma's funeral , dad cough badly at night, fox has cancer,the kitten's death.flood , blood, covid still kills in the world, governments corruptions,lies, betrays which cause thousands death everyday, Olympic's spreading virus,empty pocket,less food, hotter weather, messing rains .No way out of this life.somethings I don't wanna to live.but if I don't live when I die what can I do for it? Only when I live on I can do something, even just are  little things, one bite of food, a helping hand,to try again ,  they can breath. Where are you, kid
,come back to me, to your kids. I thought I would spay you next after snowball, the operation she did should has been yours when you're missing. We fix it together,okay, don't leave me alone here.you are a great mom, God's blessing you, don't give up.I don't wanna to give you up yet.not this time.not the time to say good bye yet.no.I refuse to.it will break my fucking heart.you know it? If you wanna to break it I will break it.cause if you don't go back it will die anyway.just come back.

God,help her.help them all.Wherever you are, take care for someday we meet again.

Thank you , God.I found them.