Men only love and marry someone who can and  break their heart instead of cum hard.cause only when they are broken hard,it means they love hard first, only when they love hard first ,they can be broken hard . There's no love first, even if they cum hard, they can't be broken hard,so how to love hard when they cum hard? Just another rape again and again and again, after on body, now by head.sucks.that's why Chinese say that if men's words can be trusted, female pigs can climb up trees.

But they are still friends who help me whatever they think about me,I help them. It's what I could do.So even if they are strangers for me,they are happy because of me,I'm happy for them also.they come to me with fun and happiness and all good things in the world .they share joy and smile and pure with me,even send tip by their property.So when they want to leave, want to go back where they belong, whatever how much I love and miss and thank them,I have to let them go.I'm in their lives ,but I'm not their lives. I need to move also.it's my life ,which is from nowhere and nowhere to go.

When kids are kids,they like jokers,when they grow up they love batman and superhero.it's cruel,but it's true.I'm not a hero.I'm only myself.but if kids have to laugh by a joker who must turn into bad for being punished by batman because of them. He deserves a big hug from back in the big rains right now. When do jokers become a bad and terrible existence in these years after so many Hollywood movies talking about them in some evil ways? They suppose to be happy childhoods of kids all the time.when they need kids to grow up so fast? Or need kids to stop growing up so much?When there's arrogance and ignorance and other 7 sins,there's goodness and badness in the world. Isn't super power power also?

But yes,if a good superhero is a joker who laugh and make people laugh all the time even when they suffer and dying, it's not like God's will. Jesus. when kids are kids,they love superhero like loving God, when kids grow up,they make super money on kids who love superhero by God who is sold for money which is worthy nothing at all? When someone wanna superheroes,they created them,when someone wanna jokers and communism,they created them, when someone wanna demon and God,they created them also? Do they exist before they are created by human ,or are existed because of being created?

Made dreams again.some classmate of mine in middle schools who came back in Australia to study or play or work connected me and wanted to sex with me again, he called me in real life to say he wants to fuck me 11 years ago like a disturb or flirt or a joke which make me feel very bad and scared and depressed before I was raped, I refused him . But in dreams I thought i could use body to make him who's disable feel better because of being friends when he only wanted to fuck me instead and pleased his friends by it.I already took off my trousers,until I refused when I saw what he played, I left there, he laughed and picked up my trousers for selling a price like a beggar . I guess I had to walk home when I lost my cloths which had bus card to take buses,then I found my coat and got it in my coat. Nobody laughed at me at all when I only wire my pants to go across the road.it's a city like Gotham.it's indeed to be lied for no trousers to wear.my life has been cut in so deep by male ,and female.love can be anything, but anything can't represent love. It's like that science can explain truth,but it is not truth;Jesus is Jewish, but not all Jewish are god.