sometimes people are worried, angry, scared, crazy, hurried, mostly because they don't even care.it's why they pretend to be like these.you love them for their better lives and next they live better without you.it doesn't mean you have magic, but that they care something else instead of you.it's why you love them, don't you? Because they can do what you can't  do , for you. sometimes they laught at you, hurt you, rape you, curse you, blame and even kill you for fixing their own problems, answering their own questions, paying for their own purposes, finishing their own suspects,atoning their own sins and getting rid of their own fear.yes, love and love of the others  is one of their ways to take care of themselves, also.but love, is not only one type like love stories and movies and fairytales.

when i realized i was eating I noticed that I was sending some food to support this corrupting body for making it be trash for another day. it's wasting food, it's a shame.

what's love, instinct to keep others alive? to keep me alive? instince to live on, to survive, to breath?if they are love, no need to find it, because it happenes everyday. is it cute to find love when it's already happen on you everyday all the time? everything and everyone can love you in this way, is it neccessary to need a specail one to love you or to love for you when you are loved and love everyhing and everyone?you're alive because of love, aren't you?even you die,there's still someone alive who can't stop miss you and cry for you death. love is unconditionally, love is selfish, also. love is beautiful, love is ugly, love is none of my businees, but love is all my business for you.like that you are a cat, but I still love you.you are dead, I still miss you,by and in all my life.

what's meaning to divine this fucking life which means to be shit like this or like that when someone even pay for knowing something which mean to be like this or like that? whatever what kinds of divination are it can't change anything!

Basing on human nature, internet makes and shows that people staying further away from each other and getting colder in lives, although someone says internet is God's gift for Chinese, I think if I can't start over again after fails and give up and stop trying again, for me it's just another way to die alone.