when you feel unfree it doesn't mean you are not free,but temperance.

3:54-23:45.8/11/ these days I feel something is not right on me. Everyone around me in China become more and more wired ,everything they does to me sucks , but I become more and more friendly to anyone.I think I'm crazy.and I think everyone in China I connect it's extremely wired than usual when I'm extremely friendly than usual. My life is threatened and I think I'm in danger.I feel I'm washing away by flood which I can't survive .but when I see it from another side, if I'm wrong, I still need to keep moving on .things never are that easy.if I'm right, it means they need to do so when I must. It means even if I want to die for them to make them hurt when they kill me who love care respect them , they still think it's what I deserve.it means if I kill myself who love them, they don't even care.

So here's an assumption: if it's not corruption of ccp who corrupt all money of Chinese , if it's not crime that communist take all money they corrupt in China abroad and spend them abroad ,if it's not washed-brain parents who paid a big money to harm me by sending me learning in communism schools colleges and working in communism military.if everything is just about someone owe someone's  money or someone raise up someone else by money, if all results are just reasons to start or start over again.Will China  be national subjugation and disappear someday soon or later? Whatever, owe something,pay back something.you can welch on something of someone once, but the bills are always in God's, and demons' hands which you can never understand unless you change.

There are someone who write Chinese online, don't know where their points or thoughts come from,perhaps being effected by foreigners who they work or live or stay with, perhaps can't be effected by their lives .but more they show they are foreigners ,more they are showed still being Chinese in minds by themselves when they don't wanna to be. Like cicada in autumn, doing what they mean to do when knowing their fate and making some noise.it's called freedom. But in a freedom country asking for absolute freedom, it's called greed.it's bringing corruption for where they are also, as locust.