Perhaps the only one who treat sex works low is myself.do you know how much money I lose when I send them pictures and c2c by body for free?

Yes, but they are called friends.even if they use you,  you still can't charge them for it.and they have choices to do what they want to do, stay, leave , or keep quiet.it's their freedom.

So if they are friends, why do you let them know you wanna to marry, wanna kids, wanna a normal like as a normal woman? Why giving them chances to use you then you can blame them by it, don't you know it's moral coercion which is one of the most disgusting thing in the world? 

I know, I know I was wrong and it's my fault.I don't like it , neither.

Couldn't mix person life with works.without sex they are just friends.I have no right to hurt them by sex at all.I'm not strong enough. I need to be strong.and, I need to be kinder.but I indeed can't be kind to Chinese especially mom who always blame me to rescue and adopt and take care of cats.I avoid to argue and fight back her anger and stupid words and provocation, stopping her negative and bad even evil life brain and theories by Hong Kong movies in 80s 90s and it works well.darkness always fears light, demons always fail in front of God.most of time, basing on having such a selfish bad mom who has full of deceit , I think everything is not my fault at all.

Someone who has dog which he adopts also asked me why I take care of homeless cats and adopt some of them,I said I can't leave them alone there when I know if I leave that time they will die and I can't see them next time.life is only once.he said I'm kind instead of pitying them.I asked back, I can't pity them,if it is pity, how about lots of Chinese who are dead,killed and suffering now because of ccp and communism? He smiled.it made me feel I'm evil.don't wanna being kind to cats is my last kindness for this world.but for parents I'm their slave, yesterday mom just asked for golden bracket again from me when I already bought a sliver one last year for her instead.they don't deserve my kids,I don't wanna them to laugh at my kids because of myself, to use me by my kids.that's also why I don't wanna a man, to marry, to give birth here ,don't wanna to have kids here,don't wanna my kids living here .and the only thing I don't know why is that why mom even dad blame that taking care of homeless weak hungry cats which are homeless is a shame.for homeless people who beg on the ways when I give them money,they only call me stupid fool and curse me a bad woman and immoral daughter who don't give them as much as money they want instead when they always ask food and money from me and never feel it's not right.feeling like my birth by them is only to feed them when they get old,but God says no.