Why my parents always depress me when other kids' parents always praise them ? their kids become richer and have good payments in communism companies, communism departments, and communism banks abroad, fall in love, marry, have kids and settle abroad when I'm still in China living like this. I thought I was talent for them and so they tried to protect me until I was raped I see what they only curse me to die, leave them alone and disappear. they wanna me to make more money by cursing me more,blaming me more and bullying me more. what do they want me to be, a piece of shit for them as a slave for them to feed them when they get old.if not why they gave me birth?why I m born in this world? billions people live happily and feed few communists who are and were all over 65 years old in this country with proud, how much insane this country is, and my parents wanna to act like these few communists by me honorably.if not they hurt me more for it.I would like to die as a human being than to be killed as a shit.

Yes, I love America ,American culture and God,it's my own business. to be there,get out of here,it's my own business,marry, have kid(s),die as old as I could freely, it's my own business.nobody likes my ways to love and care them, but I still love and care this world , it's my own business.

I'm still alone,take care of cats ,parents and myself ,I mean, without a human partner for lifetime , it's also my own business,my business is always my business .something never changes.