When you only see materials, especially money, you are helped once;when you only see respect, faith and love in help,you are helped in your whole life. don't be afraid to help, or worry, or scared, everyone has own ways to face.

I have been called by heaven in accident of near-death experience after rape,have been tempted by hell in accident when I worked in Chinese party of communism military.Now I'm staying with cats which I adopt, help and rescue at home on the earth with parents like a crazy freak psychosis.

Does it make any sense?

Heaven exsits, hell exists, angels exist, demons exist. cats can see what human can't see, cats can't be possessed by demons.I can feel feelings of cats after rape, or after near-death experience. I have different feelings and views of life after them.I change, not only because of cats, but also the experience.then I change again, because of connecting more cats.

From near-death experience I only wanna to do something right for the mad world,from the accident i only have to take care of my ill parents as long as they could live.

Nothing makes sense.Like chilly, sometimes he stairs at somewhere like looking at an angle, next second when I give him my fingers, he smells them and just rolls down like a cat.

Why I could be there, here, or everywhere when I'm just in nowhere? My exsitence is Not exsitence?But and So why I exsit for someone, and don't exsit for someone else?Why someone don't see me when I exsit?Why someone see me when I don't exsit (tybnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbn-Yoda-one of my cat wrote it).

If yellow eyes of cats see demons,blue eyes see angels, green eyes see both.I'm in both heaven and hell , only for the far distance from them each other?

Each other? I don't understand.