[8-3,12-27,2021]

the food for street cats from another woman who feed them in the afternoon is less and less and she never take water by her car for cats again. More and more cats find me in the early morning for some food and water. Two cats have mouths problems which are laughed at and judged to die by communism soldiers passing by.one has both back legs problems which hurt and can't stand up, don't know if it's sure effects of medicines to heal urinary tract infection or someone kicked him who likes to talk than other cats on nerves. One's still missing for a week which has mouth problem and weak, being kicked out from where she settled by communism soldiers by dogs and tried to freeze her to death by opening the windows .I have met about 30 street cats around the places I pass by for cats this year till now there. More than I knew than last year and much more than I feed in the past. 

The soldiers with her sister blamed and cursed me that I attract many cats here and I should be spayed when i tell him to spay street dogs he feed by others' food for donation , he tells me has enough money to raise all of dogs. But for me I dont see he uses this money to feed the dogs but dogs are less and less everyday.

The woman who feed street cats tells me she will offer money to spay cats when she even doesn't want to try to catch them for spay. So if she doesn't wanna to catch them, because she has big money. How could she spay them by money if she doesn't even try to catch them? How does she catch them if they even don't trust her ? how do cats trust her if she only put food water like garbages there for cats then leaves quickly without communications or if it's only still a show ? I need to catch them for spay just because I don't have momey? She doesn't need to catch and spay them just because she has a lot of momeu? I tell her if I could catch I pay the fee. And I don't need hers and don't trust her.then she comes less and less times with less and less food.

Honestly I don't know where these cats come from when I know she has feed cats here for more years than I do.And I don't know why she abandons everything here.but I never trust them and only defend myself from them for cats.

If I don't treat cats well, they will not get closed to me or come to me.if they don't get closed to me or come to me, I can't catch them pet then hug them or even spay them.if I can't spay them more of them will suffer hunger, tortures and death.

The snake couples who asked me for cat food for homeless cats first now ask money for spaying homeless dogs told me they can't keep street cats in their building because bad neighbourhoods betray cats and I treated them friendly and respected them for what they do to dogs.i said hi every morning when I meet him in the morning when I return from checking cats until yesterday which was very very cold I checked the cats around the building they live which had the door closed and I wanted to open it a little bit so cats could walk inside for keeping warm , i said hi as usual then he looked back at me with an evil look, his freaky disgusting face without a good friendly mask which even cheated Mr fox who shakes hands with him and talked a little bit when he's here.

And I hope the prices for spay cats don't rise up when I tell others who help street cats how to heal some diseases by cheap good medicines instead of expensive operations to take parts of cats' bodies , teeth, eyes or even anything else for vets' purposes. The low cheap prise for cats to spay has reasons, they practice skills of spay on street cats from the very beginning, about 14 cats I spayed including my 6 cats, at least 3 cats, one female cat, two boys cats of mine have pee problems, pee less, or no pee when weather changes into cold every year, other street cats almost had once, I check them everyday, everyday 1 or 2 hours to stay with them, I watch them and when they meow and sit on ground to walk by ass I will know they have pee problem again.then I feed them medicines, usually after medicines 1 or 2 days they pee well again.they are still alive, I still check them everyday.

I know if parents divorce, my dad will abandon me also after abandoning my mom.but is it why I should decide if they divorce or not? My mom always think if she knows nobody she could not survive or live on, so must know someone by anyway when she can do everything on her own  fix the water pipe, cook and live.why ?

I know I should take a bath when parents try to stop me to use water, but it's why they used half of them to wash their face and I was freezing in the bathroom without knowing anything about it when I went out to check cats, why I feed them? Because when I meet them at the first time, I see humanity inside of them.

I know I'm right measuring the broken water pipe which is broken by water drop from his design in the kitchen for 30 years and messaged them to dad. But it's why he refuses to see them? Dad always likes expensive things whatever he needs , likes ,want or not, cloths, food , machines when he could wear cheap good cloths, own planted food and stuffs he could diy, why ?

My goal is for cats,not myself.

[5-50,12-27,2021]

there Are two ancient Chinese prophecy talking about plagues coming from places of rrivers and cause lots of life die.

Does someone use them to kill people for own purposes? If it's punishment from God and heaven, I don't think it's just some little dead unless it's human made.