[8_41~9_00-1_172022]

is it true a person having nothing when they are born? Is that true nothingness means everything? Is this true everything is nothing, but only love?

[4_50-1_17-2022]

I thought hedgehog - actually he's an otter- is a female, cause no male in my life loves me, even my dad only wants to use me for money, food and power.my parents think I owe them a future when they decided to give me a birth, they decide everything of mine including going abroad or not, study communism or not, marry or not, have a home or not,. But they owe me a life, normal life when I'm born.and perhaps I will owe my kid a normal life if I pregnant and give her/him a birth,too in this communism country. This is why I can't marry till now.

This is why I feel otter's a female online cheating me for fun or for kindness to me.cause no male likes me in my true life, or get closed to me, or even wanna to marry me, give me a baby and take care of everything for me.I don't have any connect with any male in my life except my dad who I love with, and rarely connect with a female or two who feed stray cats only, and the only thing I talk with them is about how to take care of cats and things happening about cats, and stray dogs.for me if some man loves me so much, it must be a bad female who wants to have fun on me by pretending a male to connect me, or revenge or jealous or pity me by using males to trap me. Nothing else.

All connect with any other is important for me. It's part of my life, more than my life. If they could live better than me, I should leave them alone.And never come back.I'm lonely, I'm okay.

God, I love all you giving to me and being taken from me.I know you take care of all of them so they would never lose their ways home and find their way home to be with their love.