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how could they pay money to the others for someone to kill someone? Rescue little animals for own benefits ,kidnap, vet treatment for money and fame, hospital treatment for communism and governments, political wars for power  , viewers, spectors , lobbyist for fun, for sex, for any other things and so on. just go to do jobs of and admit themselves serious killers, isn't everything more clearer enough!

It makes me feel that everybody just wants me to be a serious killer to kill them in China by treating me and life of little animals in these ways when each of them has already been.

It's insane, not right at all.

God, I'm here.bless all of them.bless me.everytime when I ask for help from the others I only become problems of the others. Do I have problem?

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dress the cat which's still sneeze up with a new cloth for the homeless cat which i had only feed her several times in the winter and she's missing for a very long time and it hurts my heart.the night is cold for the short furry cat like this. I remember that in the place the cat walked around for food there's a store which has or had a similiar cat like this. and it's gone for a while after they have dogs which chased that cat a lot. and the male store owner doesn't like that, when i bought a drink that day, i heard his wife asked that where's the cat, and the man yelled the cat died. then started to touch his wife's dress to lift it up. and she screamed that it's cold . they lost the cat or they abandoned the cat? if i ask them about the cat, and they admit it's their cat, will they abandon the cat again, will the cat be back again? or just die.

snowy still has painful mouth. and doesn't eat a little bit when other cats rob her cats by scratching her and fights. Without teeth she could only lick and even can't eat her favor cans. Toothless cats cacan't not survive on their own but have to adopted. Teeth could never grow back.they just used snowy to do test for own benefits. taking away her teeth from her is a mistake. And I caught her for rat woman because she wants me to make mistakes for herself to control me. everything gets fucking worse because I didn't stop them cutting in for snowy when I trusted them.and it's all my fault. And the payment is rest life of snowy.money can't buy anything especially responsibility.someone who buy responsibility or love or truth or anything by money could only be responsibility for money itself.

most cats show up at night when i checked the homeless cat. i will try to get closed to her tomorrow.she doesn't wanna to get closed to me.hope rat woman stays away from her and don't try to catch her again and scare her so much.

rat woman and snake woman put food which are rice with little fishes there, but cats still are happy to see me and ask food from me, i often take dry food for them. didn't take much for them.just little bit.and it's almost running out.

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honestly, snowy was fine frist,relax and happy, after using medicines, they gave her hormons,too, she immidiately could eat well on the first day. then they took off teeth of hers. then i asked the rat woman when snowy could leave the vet, she said she paid 6 days bills for living in the vet.then on the 4th day's night i asked the doctor, he said she could stay there longer. then on the 5th day snowy started to get sick again, no eat, no drink and looked very scared and nervous.the nurses told me they reduced the medicines on her with a threating look at me.then i messaged the rat woman and she pissed off and pushed me to beg the doctor to low the price for her to pay other days to live in the vet for treatments. I refuse.in the eariler morning of 6th day i picked her up and set her free.she seems very happy again and jumps runs fast than before.

snowy turned weak after i asked about the day to leave for her. i suspect they used the rat woman who loves to be used to push me to compromise for own benefits ,for more money. Or even wanted to kick her out of the vet( for save her  , or for nothing to make anymore when they knew rat woman needed 'an operation' , for me it should be on her insane minds) .and suspect they used some medicines which have very bad side effect to make her look good then go worse, for more money to live in vet and treatments.i never had chance to know what happened on snowy these days although i checked her 3 times a day.and almost run out of all of cat food and my money for cats to buy some food for snowy to recovery. but she's happy and seems healthy now,and still alive, it's worhty.

then on my way to get food for cats again with the rest of money i saw another homeless cats sneezing on the road asking food from everybody passing by and never stop for the cat including cars which it wanted to jump up. a taxi driver told me it's a homeless cat which had been around there for days and asked for food from him. but the cat never got closed to him when he tried to get closed to the cat. so I pick the cat back when the cat got closed to me and post online to see if anybody could adopt the cat.i try to see how to find its owner because it looks like not going very further away from home although being thin. God bless the cat to find and have a forever home and families who love her/him very very very very much till the end.

sometimes I wish i was never born in China so i could not even see such little animals suffering  and can't leave them alone on the edge of death.