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I feel I can't blame my parents about their foolish stupid ridiculous insane and sick minds on everything, cause when they were kids and teenager and young and life aged till now over 60+ years old this country, this political communism Party,this city where they are born ,live ,settle and service, survive in have been more than them.

So will be mine.

This vet has a lot of problems. Doctors, nurses and medicines, that's why except spay cats and never want to go there with cats.rat woman is a part of them.

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checks snowball and she started to eat dry food, she's very hungry and in the litter box there were red pee again, twice.after I cleaned the box she pee again and it's normal, no blood.keep an eye on her still.and will take more cat litter there instead of buying a new bag of it in the vet.

Checking out everything happened these days about snowball. Are my reflections on everything depressed and effected by Chinese party of communism and Chinese culture which depressing me and any other here to make everybody betraying and separating from each other for its own power and rules? Have even 100 years like this? Anybody who leaving China and escaping from this depress and going abroad and have lives well instead of fighting against  this depress and communists is anyone who betray people here when they promise to fight for God and anything right?

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When communists keep using more money to try to add life's value of themselves and others' for communism, judge value of life by how much money they are cost and spent whatever animals' or human's or themselves' , whatever they suffer or not for it, like them or not,can overcome it or not, die or live, even go to the communism church to pray for their  communism behaviors and belief in communism, singing to thank God for communism carriers,is it the excuse of theirs to do bad communism things, having second women or men, even second kid secretly, corrupt more money to be richer without noticing people's tragic lives for making them feeling rich in their heads instead of hearts when they have taken much more money of others for surviving in China, even in the world for themselves?

Rogues are not only male, but also female, like liars.

Love is such a little thing than and different from everything including paying money or bills, using power to do something or rule ,keep on loving. Snowball is in big troubles and problems now on her organs because of the medicines the vet using on her now for her mouth and strange mousey environment for interstitial cystitis. she has already pee blood once before the operation now she's shot infusion more. Her body is suffering for nothing and nobody. is that the way of the vet to make money by hurting animals first then healing them for benefits. Not the time to give up. Not this time to let her go.losing teeth is the first way to heal teeth.but her kidney can't suffer so much infusions, and started to pee blood even before the operation.fuck rat woman who having kidney disease. You have diseases of kidney, it's never cats' fault especially snowball's unless you fuck the second man to make money for your own businesses.

You never need to tell me your private life on secrets.but you can't hurt or kill cats to exchange their life for yours, pleasing yourself on pains weakness of cats because of your own mistakes.never.

God helps snowball, keep her safe from demons, heal her heart and soul, and gives her back to me from hands of painful darkness and cold death.

Why rat woman and the vet use 7 days to stay in hospital? Seven days for Jesus to reborn, seven days for normal healthy innocent life to fucking die out.