{7-10,2-8,2022}

I dislike my parents or Chinese not because they who become to use tragic misery experiences of any other and innocent victims to scare, threat and depress me, but because they start to use others' pains, death and injustice things which are because of their numb ,fear and mistakes as tools and wipes to control and rule me. Perhaps this place has been suffered too much, perhaps people are in darkness too long, but still has no reason or excuse to turn into monsters.

{5-01,2-8,2022}

God , show them your love, fox needs a miracle. 

For some other power, even dark ones, I know you exist,and  you know what I want. Do me a favor. If there's a good future of mine or soon, I would exchange them or delay it for more 10 years life of Mr fox.

So fox could see his granddaughter to go to middle school when he's alive.

Have bad luck so long for me, 10 more years life is more worthy for him.

{4-21,2-8,2022}

Dreamed that there was a family , 3 kids and parents, two were twins. One had superpower to make money by air, like magic.one could make these money disappear in the air, like magic,too.they lived in a small town and their families and people know them treated this twin like monsters.someday a woman, a man and a kid like mafia came. They knew this twin.and took them away and promised them to take care of them.actually they used them to do bad business , they were bosses of a large mafia organization. They pretended to be poor families when police visited them and another kid envy the twins until he's abandoned.the mafia used these ' money' to do business and made more money, he owned more businesses,but owed more money, but was more happier.someday he died in a car ,before he died people saw the car shaking ,like someone in it playing women by sex.the woman kept cheating people until me who's a detective noticed these cheats by lies. the twins left,nobody knew where they were.someone are never as poor as they look like.like Mr fox says, never judge a book by its cover.