corruption in Chinese Party of Communism, it can be noticed in very ancient Chinese culture which is that young families give old families gifts to earn more love and attentions, basing on favoritism and bias.

I aren't bothered by if Chinese Party of Communism will disappear or not, 

but worry if it disappear, who will take charge of Chinese? if Chinese Party of Communism isn't only a criminal team,but also a victim team,what will happen in China next? this communism monster has been pregnant for 99 years,the baby monster which will be given birth soon,perhaps isn't not anybody, but Chinese itself, will it kill its mom after it comes into this world soon, to take charge the world,or survive this time and hide in the corner of China to hang on for next mistake?

Chinese needs Chinese Party of Communism,but when it doesn't, it corrupts it.so what kind of Political Party can handle China, what kind of person can ?

Chinese Party of Communism has full of crisis in China and abroad,if it's not caused by Chinese,who can make it?what they want from destroy of Chinese Party of Communism, why do they fight against it for purposes and do these things or do nothing for what? truth, or God?

i made a dream last night. i dreamed that the cousin who raped me nine years ago,came to where I lived when other families were in other rooms drunk and had fun , talked mad things ,I was a sex worker or a whore and made a live for it.he started to sex with me and cum in me,then he said sorry for that.and asked me what to do next, i said i would take emergency contraception soon.but he needed to help.then i told him that whatever he did to me couldn't do anything for me who is always lonely and has no ties of destiny on family relationship.

I told him that You can't change anybody,the only one you change it's yourself.

there's been something in my mind for a very long time when I know C-virus spreads in China from the very beginning.

why Wuhan P4 lab which has the most possibility and suspicions in this disaster to start C-virus is Just beside Yangtze River next to Three Gorges Dam which is the most damned blamed thing in China from being built.Don't CCP government know the lab has risks to pollute water in the river?

why Three Gorges Dam is against all to be built on Yangtze River?Don't they know the dam has dangers to threat hurt and kill lots of life?

someone post that CCP government can explode the dam to stop C-virus spreading in Wuhan from South of China to North of China.but if it's in an opposite way to think about it, if they build the dam to explode for prepare to cover everything happening in this area like someday now. they can ignore everyone's opinion who fight and fought against to build this dam,they can ignore everyone's life to explode it for lasing its life more.I think CCP doesn't mean that the world should thank CCP doing good on shut down Wuhan city timely,but mean that if it's not C-virus but something else happen and spread,the world would be hell and nobody survives, CCP has other choices.i think it's crazy.

Naivety doesn't mean it's not good, mature is the way to be it.
天真不一定不好，成熟是通向它的路（3毛说的？）
Innocence doesn't mean it's not evil, complication is losing way in it,but forgiveness is the way out.
无邪不一定不坏，复杂并不会走上老路，但宽容（原谅）是出路。

CCP doesn't care to rule the world,or fight against USA,

if CCP starts from 1921,after 2020 there will be 100 years for it to raise up someone or somebody which will carry on its communism faith,like Mao, Hilter,or more than these,

for Chinese we always say It Takes Ten Years to Grow Trees and a Hundred Years to Nurture Talents.when this one who has innnate talents of communism appears,the world will be damned from 2021.

perhaps Kim jong un is or was the this one but all Chinese are, perhaps not.whatever, CCP made a very very very very big mistake,and this time,  it has to let Kim and North Korea go. 

Im wrong.

After CCP control and handle China,Chinese isn't Chinese anymore.

They breath and hang on by CCP which is their roots and body.

CCP is their fruits and seed,Chinese is their fruits and seed,too.

why Chinese always don't respect each other when money exist in their relationship and friendship or businesses connects,why there's no pure connect relationship or friendship among Chinese always.

mom curses me cheap low stupid pussy,in Chinese it's the most evil hateful words for Chinese each other.it makes me suspect if I was given birth by her and most original antipathy for her from very beginning who use female gender to please even flirt with male for taking advantages.

and there's someone called Guo Wengui or Kuo Wengui who calls himself a business man which is bullied by CCP and has most reasons to revenge CCP personally,right? now he has a big fan club which donate him for his words and posts online by websites and beauties to work deadly for him cutting in America very well and buy many masks for his fans and stored them in his basement and found by American polices, right?

he's the one who wants wars between America and China and even ignore how many life will be killed in it and how much worse it will happen in China on Chinese, but online he pretends he doesn't know them at all and tell Chinese who believe and thank him for what he does by using VPN to connect internet and listen to him to store food water and emergency stuffs for the wars which mean to be caused by him and his organization.why Chinese people need to thank someone who cause wars which will kill them all! isn't it a trap?

who make and collect much money and benefits in this C-virus spreading in the world?WHO BECOMES POWERFUL IN THIS TRAP?

who become more powerful and stronger ,Chinese! and  these CCP members abroad in America who fight against Chinese and CCP in China FOR ACP!UCP!WCP!CAN CCP AND CHINESE HAVE RESPONSIBILITY OF IT ON WHAT THEY ARE DOING!CAN YOU?CAN WE?

I think they don't make no choice for me, but there is no choice.

I HAVE told a lot about the story which is about a Farmer and a Frozen Snake from 2016 to my friends.and then Trump played it badly and Laughed at it.it's coincidence, or not.then Coronavirus released in China and spread in the world and have killed a lot of people.

the CCP snake bite back.

America knew Chinese Communism Party cooperated with Kuomintang and they still gave a hand to them for fighting against Japanese by sending Flying Tigers in 1940-1941,okay,American isn't someone who fight for their own benefits and use CCP and KMT to defeat Japanese,okay, American isn't someone who help weak countries and kick their asses when they become strong or even stronger, than him and okay, American isn't hero which fight for Justice and just passing by when he's on the way to victim.so America is what? The Farmer who pity THE SNAKE COMMUNISM and keep it warm for almost 80 years until it wakes up well and bites all! isn't it?

but the story still keeps going on, now the ccp snake bite us all, some American who are carried poison Coronavirus deadly and dying ask for money by laws from the ccp snake which born to be like this instead of killing it,and it makes some other Chinese American and Chinese who are health and strong so exciting and praise and cheer for them: well done!now ccp snake goes to hell!are they all mad?or I am, why for me they are insane?they are going to die soon and still only want money instead of eye for an eye by wars, life for one life.

and I just want to know in a communism country without corruptions and purposes of ccp how and why can be so many Chinese in America!

Yeah, Chinese are Not Chinese communism Party or even Communists, but it does Not mean that they are Not the Same.donald trump in white house or Mcdonald trump in shit house!

I have a very important question for me which i don't understand , I hope i can remember it.

and i m thinking that although i think Chinese are horbbits in this virus disasters,if they are not, if they lost their good natures or even don't have any, what will happen to the world?if im wrong,what Chinese is?like the eye on the tower burning?me sucks.

something is born with life, with human being, it can't be changed by times or ages.sometimes it's like genes,sometimes is like fortune.

last night when i wake up in the dark,i felt im falling down into the abyss from the edge of it when i think of dad and mom who are getting old and weak but still work and live hard to be with me,to take care of me without good food and stuffs to be healthy and comfortable, then after they died i will die alone and lonely in somewhere and nobody knows or notices or cares, don't know why I haven't got the bottom of the abyss, either someone holding me back or i have winds to fly,or both of them, or just keeping falling in this deepest abyss in the world.

Happy Easter,kids,pinky, punky,mizzy,little kitten,Alex,Crystal,happy Easter,our Gizmo kitten girl.

it's two different ways to think about things like these, one ways is that thinking of others who have talents to do something having weakness which are damned by demons,another ways is that thinking of everybody are different, and have talents from God.

there are lots of chaos now about Chinese. for Chinese we say hero doesn't appear in peace times but in war times.except virus there must be someone making chaos now for get some chances for purposes.i want to be a politician,i don't know if i can corrupted or not,but i know standing by truth with God nobody can be corrupted.

i argued with parents all day on Easter day yesterday they said they going to buy a house cause their prices are falling down and more and more people trying to get houses . i think it's a trap but they don't trust me and they want me to move out and don't care where i can be, or kids.im very sad. i don't understand. i m born like this but they always want me to do and be someone else and compare me with others, it's not fair at all.he said I have no heart and soul cause i don't thank them at all. it's an Easter day the only I must thank to is God.

dad said in cpc(Chinese Party of Communism)'s system his name is the owner of this home, he has right to kick me out by it if he likes to.i asked him it's wrong that i must die or do anything for living with them who owe cpc's money to pay for this house to live as an owner for thanks,or i will be kicked out.but the owner of this house in cpc system means that they have duty of nation to pay the house to live,instead of rights to kick out of who out . cpc doesnt care famlily tragic only money. like that cpc tells Chinese that Chinese are owners of China, cpc only services owners, but cpc means that owners of Chinese work for China and cpc enjoy the money from their works.they are all lied.and i don't understand why they treat me in this way.but i will know why i stay here still alone in the end.

Judging someone by their look and wearing is Not respect.but my parents like to do it and they want me to do that also.it makes them feel like being God.I told them it's wrong, it's discrimination,like judging someone by skin color, short or tall, and where they're from,all wrong.they say others are doing the same things,they make them feel shame on me and they want to be strong,want me to be strong ,to be better than that.they want me to buy expenive creams and cloths to wear for others who are none of my businesses on what and how they say talk and live.I even don't know them who are friends of parents.I'm none of their business,neither.but something can't be changed, something is destined,be strong and be better for unchanged and destined things, it's wrong,neither.

life is not a game.

So what do Chinese and Chinese American who blame hurt Chinese and cpc China online want?what are they fighting for?stand on top of morality for what's good and right,or stand by powers and benefits which can decide what's good and right?

When Chinese died In henan 1958~1962 for starve,cpc calls it disaster of nature ,you keep quiet,when Chinese young people were killed on Beijing tianmen square in June 4,1989,cpc says it's riot,you keep quiet ,when cpc wuhan coronavirus spread in the world and murder millions,cpc deny all assauses but assuase the c-virus comes from America,you still keep quiet?now you start to talk?anything can be changed ? If it can be ,it Should has been changed 60 years ago.

What a fucking Chinese I am.

Mom read cpc news to me: for the country Everyone has to sacrifice!
I said: yeah, many families all died at home, parents, grand parents,grandchildren,even pets.

Mom:all heals in China for Chinese are free.
I said: yeah,only free for relationships of cpc communists,the others die and dying in their own rooms and pay expensive prices for little food to cpc corrupted communists when being blocked at home.

Mom:cpc says Chinese are great this time!
I said: yeah,only communists say Chinese are great, listen to the world how many people realize what Chinese are and see what they do for cpc,stealing rob cheating materials to China.of course great is benefits always.

Mom got piss off and said: how dare you talk like these lies,you will be caught when you say it in public, you will be sent to jails.
I said: I only tell the truth.And I'm telling the truth.it makes me happy,lies make me sick.