Someone who have blood and ties of Chinese do evil bad things,make people trust that all good things are bad and make love of the others funeral of hearts and believe in demons, want me to believe that all about China,Chinese,Chinese Parties and communists are good,innocent,harmless and respectful?make your dream and go fuck yourselves.

yesterday i just cleaned and finished the cat house , this morning when I feed cats there were someone who live around there threw garbages beside it. but a new skinny cat is there,also. I told him welcome,and he must be the dad of the kitten.7 kittens,2 are missing in half a month.and then four are missing at one night,i looked for them everywhere ,but not result.I cried,then I started to build the new shelter for the mom cat and the kitten.when I picked them up and threw them into the garbages box, I m a lot angry,and little sadness.do they hurt the kittens and eat them all?basing on their behaviors throwing garbages beside the cat shelter,i can't stop suspecting like that.

and I met someone who walked with their dogs which always spark at me when she see me.i saw them very far away and I picked up another way to go home for keep her quiet, cause I don't want to wake people around there early by her spark,it's five c'clock.but her owners saw me chosing another way to go, they walked to the another way for blocking me again and the dog was sparking at me again,and the owners made fun on me and laughted,felt like if their dog doesn't spart at me,the dog will get sick.I did say nothing and just looked back at them then left in a hurry.

will all these things end when Chinese Party of Communism disappear? is Chinese Party of Communism the saurce of all these evil things?  Chinese are good and kind and all right? should i thank Communim which makes me see how much bad human being can be on Chinese?or how much bad Chinese can be?I believe lots of Chinese and Chinese foreigners fight against Chinese Party of Communism is because they are scared and fear for what they have done and are especially for Chinese Party of Communism.like what communists do a lot of them need a very very very very big scapegoat this time to live in America and other countries well,safe,happy and lawful.and Chinese Party of Communism is the best choice,so is America.but who can live well safe happily and lawful when their life comes from hell,and have seen lots of seperations in it,death, pains,discriminations,demons.i think i will not.I never can be.

classic detective stories often tell me that when someone are criminals they have reasons,can be understood and forgiven.but what someone do are just too evil to take and accept.why connection among me and Chinese become like this, or why Chinese become like this? when i love cats and someone I need to pay for it to someone else by money and bribe? on their ground? they treat me and cats and who I love in this way,why they expect that they deserve something from me?

gave the dog which settle in the corner a water bowl,someone start to fill water in it, the food bowl is someone put there for a long whilte, it's not mine.

went to the markets twice and collected stuffs to make a house for the mom cat with the only kittne which is alive there,other four kittens are missing suddenly at one night, i check them every morning,that morning they were playing happily,then next morning 4 all are missing , today is the thrid day.

my fault.

if I do it eariler, they might still welcome me and my food each time.perhaps they look for water and lost their ways. God, help them, help me and mom cat finding them somewhere.thanks.

p.s.the cat house doesn't cost much,there's a good price. the abandoned bed doesn't need money,and nails, plastic cover, structural adhesive with tools which I bought before, and xpanded polystyrene boards with the pads totally spent about 50CNY.

actually there's one way to fight against Trump,is to destroy Chinese Party of Communism for someone who believe that if Chinese Party of Communism is destroyed which pay bills for Trump from American farmers to win votes of being next President of the United State of America,and  there's one way to help Trump ,is to pretend to fight against Chinese Party of Communism for someone who don't believe that and will by other hands destroy Cpc which are in the way for Trump to be the next President.

but who vote for someone who help them to sell food can also vote for money which is used to corrupt them for impeach someone.who don't vote someone can help to destroy CPC which would like to change the results of whom will be the next President.

and who fight against Trump must fight against Communists,fight against Democracy Party

Im a fan of the American movies the Lord of the Rings,now I seem to understand what does it mean for me:the fate of worlds or key of wins is always in hands of some little nobody instead of great ones'.except don't give up and always keeping trying, I will mark it be my third motto, of America, even though it's an United Kingdom novel which I haven't read it yet.

Communism is something.

it's not someone.

what you get when Selling friends for honor isn't honor, but vanity.

who forgive you and come back with you again again again when you sell them again and agian and again aren't your friend,but your families.

I checked kittens and mom cats this morning again,one of them which was very sick yesterday starts to come alive and has appetite to eat,but too tiny and weak to bite chicken meats, so after the emergency cat cans are deliveryed today i will give them by mixing kitten powder with water.that will be good for it to get strength back and cool to see it grows up happily and healthily again.I pray that people leave them and shelters alone.

gave chickens to a stray dog,too.

my account had 52.89 CNY this moring after I booked two emergency cat cans for stray kittens which are sick.I used China bank app in the smartphone which is only used to use Chinese apps to cash dollars which my super man sent to me for buying food and living for me and cats I got today into CNY at eight o'clock.everything went well until I found that althoug the app showed me that CNY which was cashed by dollars had already in my account but Wechat which is another Chinese app told me that my account which had all CNY from dollars didn't have plenty money to send money to dad for the another half of living fee of next month.it's still zero.then I checked the records to cash dollars in the app as usual,I found that this time there's no record about cashing dollars,but the dollars had already been cashed.then I called the China bank service,I called three times and three women answaerd me.everyone pushed me to go the China banks in my city to fix the problem and the third one  told me that the dollar was still in my account,told me don't worry.i was pissed off for the lies and the banks kept dollars of me but no CNY back to me for it,only some fake money in my account which can't be used as bullshit for lies.then I went to the nearest bank.and an female emploee worked for me and fixed it with anger when she showed me above 18.000.000 CNY in her China bank app and 118dollars in her account.so God what can her money do on answering my suspects and told me why China bank swollen my dollars and don't give me CNY when I cashed by them? in the end whatever I asked about this case she always said I operated wrongly this time and the dollar failed to be cashed when I knew everything was right on what I did about cashing the dollars into CNY this tome.all of them told lies on it and never tell the truth, they even can't say that they don't know why it happens and appologize for it.they only work for money which is paid by Communism government,not for customers who use the communism banks.their angry and unhappy service finally kicked me out of their working place.

I remember she told me one thing in the bank when she got anger which I think it's truth.She said that the businesses in China banks--so in all Chinese banks--which charge foreign currency into CNY and CNY into foreign currency especially the strongest currency in the world which is Dollar,is controled and made by other two Chinese companies which i believe that it's straightly ruled by Chinese Party of Communism.or some powerful communists directly.China banks don't have full ability to do currency businesses.they are just a shell between customers and someone who control it.there's another system to control everything.

why it happens when I use China bank official app and cash dollar rightly the dollar still in China bank after it? if China banks say that I have no record on cashing dollars and don't tell me the dollar is still in my account,my money would lose always.

how terrible it is when the dollar of mine is still in China bank the record of cashing disappear and the app says I get CNY by cashing dollar in app but actually I get nothing? if their cheat susccess could I fight against the whole powerful communism system for my money which is corrupted completely?

American are honest,and their movies tell truth.they save a soldier by 9 soldier who died mostly.they never leave one of them behind,they support their President who is crazy and seem mad.but they fight against,don't give up and always have faith in God.

what about Chinese?some of us only can do anything to partners and teams when dangers come and risks happen for themselves to survive,some of us escape to America and laught at what will happen in China of Chinese who can't leave for honoring themselves in American by what they have done in China to make it so worse,some  of us always blame and curse President and Chairman Xi Jinping whatever how well he can do or how wrong for that would rather killing all who are innocent than missing one who is not.

China belongs to the past is falling, America goes to the future is rising up.

why I'm still here, perhaps I think I'm guilty for China which has been what it is now.when it falls,I'm part of it which fall together.

I got some pieces of chicken meats yesterday and went to check cats in lunchtime.and this morning I checked them again about 4:30.so people who live around there can't stop us.

a stray mom cat gave birth,7 kittens, she had somewhere to settle in an apartment before and survive for years, but after having babies they are moved out by someone in it who dislike their smells.now they live in garbages,but she never gives up her babies and take care of them everyday,five kittens left.two are missing.i built a kitten shelter for them by the garbages around there and looking for a pad for them to settle,mom cat doesn't like smells of used pad or some other reasons,she doesn't like to walk in it even when there's food .and another stray mom cat has two kittens,one is missing,then all skinny.what all I can do is to bring food for them everydday and try to take care of them for what they live in.the kitten shelter and where they live need to fix for rainning days, when kittens get wet for them it's very dangerous,they can not hide in it when it can't protect them from rains.and I booked someone online,something for cutting woods.and shoe pads to protect feets from being sticked by nails.and put food for another shelter of stray cats'.

and Communism army are pasting something on the walls and changing all windows whatever they were new or old of all old appartments here including ours and these -part-time workers who lost their ground and were farmers before because of Chinese governments destroy houses of birds on the trees which had grown up on the appartments for more than 10 years.what are they fucking doing here.when they can reach the top they destroy everything as high as they can get.these motherfuckers are never stopping going to hell.

so I get an answer:why there're always communism and communists playing some fucking ridiculous damn dirty roles in where tears,death,chaos and darkness,hates and bloods start?

cause it's not only instinct of something which want to escape away death and punishments,but also nature of them which mean to reborn from death and darkness,tears and chaos,hates and bloods of the others instead of themselves'.

8,000,000 life die for coronavrius and 2,400,000 people have been infected,I don't want communism and Chinese Party of Communism reborn again on them.it's too sick to accept it.

Not this time.

Communism is made by human for demon,it should can be destroyed by human with God.

Communism is Not Only in China But Also in other countries,why it's been in China from 1921 for so many years?Communism has feed Chinese who make it exist for so many years,to fight against Chinese Party of Communism only and let Chinese go for believing that Chinese are good is Not true.

Does Communism suit who are Chinese and Chinese are using communism to rule the world and when their ambitions to rule the world are noticed are they going to push all responsibilities to communism and Chinese Party of communism?

Once being communists and believing it nothing can get their heart and soul from hell whatever they believe in God or not before or after. Sins of being communists and believing communism is more worse than murder and kill,rob and rape,etc.who born in communism countries and times always have responsibility for someone who die because of communism, and destiny for destroying communism which mean to kill life. or what does their bodies mean in their life?

I can't admit and believe the truth of being raped by the cousin and keep quiet for it, just because my dignity and proud doesn't allow such a criminal and incest happen on my families.i don't want him to rape anybody,not only because it's criminal,it's wrong, but also because it's shame,it's freaky.

I stopped him in the end to rape the others as I know, but I was raped.

I pretend and don't believe that I was raped by family,but it still exists.

why he chose me?cause he knows me than myself and he uses it,he knows I'm too proud to tell the truth,he knows I will stop myself to realize and tell it to the others especially who make me proud and honor to be one of them and to be with,especially who I know and trust in my life,will convince myself that it's not rape,or criminal,but a mistake, which it's all my responsibility.I'm just a sex model for him.now he has everything which I pay for them and I still don't care them at all.it simply messes with his self-esteem continuously.

but what make me hurt and bad in it is that, the first thing i felt when rapes happened,was that I think I don't take good care of him who become a criminal,and that I m a bad sister who deserved to be punished like this.for the other families and friends, I have same feelings whatever happen on both them and me.

I m sorry but I don't like that.

communism is men made,

it's why it has a lot of similar humanity,but itself and its believers never can be representative for life itself and all human being.it's why it only can be communism itself whatever how much they change .

or there's another story,Nancy Patricia wanna to be the first female President of the world=United States,but when she fails again and again and again because of Republican Party Trump.there are someones rising who harm her power in Democracy Party,too.as Familiar as coronavirus which has appeared in the world when Chinese Communism Party has problems in its systems and Hong Kong even abroad?then death of Floyd is like the virus starting to spread in whole America and the world.someone walk on the roads and destroy everything they see and hurt and corrupt everyone when they meet like Chinese communism zombies/monsters.parts of  them are not like communists,but they are disappointed by Democracy Party and can't blame Republican Party for it,they have energy which need to release.they are someone who can harm power of Patricia.they still have consciousness.but they play a dangerous game with her,they use communism which can destroy their whole country with its believers,like Floyd did which is called BLM perhaps,is it why Trump can't escape from this war for them but stand still for something else when she kneels?

indeed there's an ancient quote in China of Chinese,kinds of barking dogs do not bite,and it also means,kinds of dogs which don't bark bite.

Coincidence?

why there're always communism and communists playing some fucking ridiculous damn dirty roles in where tears,death,chaos and darkness start?

Yeah,communism is men made,also.

it has a lot of humanity,but it never be human being.

perhaps even this one.

you burn, you heat, rob,you destroy, you mess up under the name of (Death of ) Geroge Floyd,

if you think he's a hero, you should have felt sorry for it to him,

cause your behavior(or purpose)is as same as the criminal which killed him (by being punished by laws of your governments) in the end,you become parts of things which killed him for yourself,

and what are they kneeling for? an innocent American or a victim,a dignity citizen,or whom was just a scapegoat  for their political careers and aims being used by his life/his death to get what they want to? or a Dark power which is rising up in America and looks like red, in the world?is it black?is it only about black and white?or dark?whhy an asshole piece of shit I sound like when I talk about it like this in this way.cause it is shit.

Fists and money can't solve all problems,or why and what politics and shows exist for?

politics is someone who know what is truth to benefits something by truth,shows are something which understand what is money to power someone by money,too.

Fake dollar=CNY, Fake America=Chinese Party of Communism,CNY can never be dollar,and Communists can never be America,cause they are not.

it is like and why there's only one God in the world,isn't it?

so is Trump a communist?

Someone asked me why you still stay here and let the others hurt me?

it depends on what's called Friend for me.When I was a girl someone said friends are someone who can do some crazy things,get crazy together with them,now I understand what does it mean.

but when they go too far away on being crazy, as a friend of theirs they need to pull them back to be normal again.

it's their responsibility to pull China and Chinese Party of Communism back to be normal again and if they can't be normal again,it's also their duty to destroy them from damaging the world.it's why I'm still here with other Chinese,others in China? 

Chinese communism kill rich Chinese to share money and stuffs to Chinese,they say good,they deserve death,we will be free;

Chinese communism control Chinese governments,Chinese say good,they serve us,we will be owners of this place;

Chinese communism pick up someone to be chairman of it,Chinese say good,we will have a great leader;

Chinese communism rule the whole country,Chinese say good,they will make us have a wonderful future,we are loved by blood ties;

Chinese communism hold the power and have weapons,Chinese say good,they will protect us and we will be safe;

Chinese communism cut woods destroy forests lands rivers build houses and make benefits by it,Chinese say good,they are making money for all of us;

Chinese communism produce made in China and spread them to the world,Chinese say good,we are respected by fame;

Chinese communism point at Chinese by guns for money,Chinese say,good,we will borrow money from anybody who wants to help us instead of fighting against for what they have done and who they say they loved.

from the very beginning they care nobody and nothing, in the end they can care nobody and nothing anymore.

who say that Chinese are good and Chinese governments and communism are bad?how much money they have paid to you for it?if they are good why they are going into hell with Chinese communism step by step?why only communists who kill somebody and someone can become high level communists to have more power to corrupt?why only Chinese who are criminals including corrupted communists can go abroad and settle in America,survive like human being?cause 'they' don't exist.they shouldn't have existed for me.how could I know each Chinese when Im in China being controlled and ruled by Chinese communism Party?the only one I could know and it's possible to know is me.

dad drunk and came home at 1:30AM.I asked him is it fair that someone like him who drink deadly and come home late at midnight can be honored for it instead of being shamed and changed and someone like who obey laws and rules and principles of families' and government's and country's born to be shamed for it?I should do everything everyone wants me to and the country and Chinese Party of Communism needs me to do well,if not I must be punished and cursed for it,it's all cheat.

I asked why he thinks he takes advantages of mine when I want to help him but treats mom who never give him a hand like I do as God who could watching him dying.He said mom is his wife,wife and daughter are different.God damn the asshole,so he can take advantages of me,it's why I m his daughter who born to be taken advantages of,even my first kiss when me who was just 10 years old tried to stop him drunk,and felt good about it,he meant to do it,like my cousin who raped me?

I watched a video about a six year old little girl who's black walked in the crowd when speaking something about justice and peace.i started to think again.then divined for one question,where's the hate came from and how does it end?

the divination says the hate comes from the death,Floyd's.and end with being honest,no worry but keep moving.there may be someone like Martin Luther King, Jr appear,which calls hope. 

I tell my parents when I can't honor you by working in communism companies, at least don't shame me by telling bad about me to the others for what I do,when they don't understand me and what I do,at least don't lie to someone else about me and what I do.but they always do it,like what my country, my government do to me,to Chinese.