Happy new year ,2021.I'm sorry it may not be that good, but we can try together.

Thank you very much,2020.

cry cry cry cry

The puppy is going to the new home alone.

I miss him so much,

God bless him.

animals cats dogs can understand human ,why they are not like human?

Stray dogs and cats love human as much as pets of human do,even more, why human love pets more when they also take care of stray dogs and cats?

As I read all Chinese who are in America and foreign countries only do the same thing which divide America for their own benefits when they pretend they are warriors of God and stand by justice instead of fools and being stupid,some of them even know they are dividing America and still want Trump to have thus responsibility.

God,will everything be all right?

Merry Christmas,God I have lots of questions this year,lots of things to thank you, to tell you, to pray.

I feel this year the feeling of Christmas is weak than usual for me.he's more busy to take care of his families and forgets my feeling...like forget something falling in the dark abysss of forgotten place always.trump releases lots of criminals like Joker,and he has lots of fans for supporting him to be crazy or to be crazy for supporting him.whatever Chinese or foreign Chinese do they pull and push other Chinese together ,people call it relationship when they call it national ties and I think if they escape from Chinese Party of communism which is failing and crashing down or not.

Cats , one is missing,the basement kitten still is trapped in the basement and it will be -18℃  next week.will it keep warm well,dogs,he's gone,and an abandoned dog's homeless,I know some chunese ate it and my neighbourhoods threw it ,life is changed after trump being President and virus releasing in the world.any connect between them?

The world need the truth.I need to find it.happy birthday Jesus.

So when 2016 they made him a fool to take the blames and in 2020 they made him a lunatic to take him down.

To be a police needs to make criminals happen,I think it's why my cousin who raped me become a Chinese police after he raped me,it's rule of Chinese governments.like that to become a Chinese government employee and communist you need to corrupt or be corrupted.like a mark on a fallen angel to service demons.Chinese police are for Chinese Party of communism.and my cousin even fears not to service Chinese vommunidm,so he raped me to be a Chinese police,it's why I laugh at him always ,he's a coward.And I cry for my baby which is aborted,it's innocent,the best gift from it for mother's day is death and kill itself for its stupid bad mad and sad mom who even do not deserve it,my baby,mommy loves you,mommy doesn't wanna to hurt or kill you.mommy is wrong,mommy miss you.

Perhaps everything has something connect with my life in China .I was born in 80s,those years had family planning which lots of babies were killed by Chinese communism government,I heard that my mom lost a baby also  before me,but then who told me scared to tell me more and rush away when she saw my face which didn't know anything about it.I think it's forced by government which she fears also.the rape honestly force me to keep looking for the truth about the baby.I still remember that mom said my grandmom hated me born as a girl when she blamed mom that why it's a girl,Again.that baby it's a girl,my sister.it makes my parents hate me a lot especially when I want freedom and get out of control .they love that baby still,and push all responsibility on me even when Chinese governments which they thank and be loyal murder my sister.they are crazy but still have expects on me.if they don't fight against Chinese governments they will not forgive themselves when they are alive.

Dad tried d to stop me going outside for a walk in early morning.I know he doesn't care me but only suspects me feeding stray cats and wants me to listen to him and stop ,actually I do.but if I can't do what I love to do but being controlled by a communist,it's a shame for me.And I can't suffer it anymore.then he curses me for everything and curse me to be sick in rest of my life,curse me to die.I asked him wether he curses everybody who he can't control,he doesn't deny it.he admits it silently.it's sad someone who believe in deity use power of belief to curse good people and someone who do right things.it's wrong to tell Chinese have no belief when their belief is evil today , when they turn into bad,when they pray that bad guys to be punished and punishments are on themselves instead of bad guys,when only bad can fix bad,is it good??is it hell??or human life??when communism is in China to control everything,why I'm just taken money I make by it?why more of Chinese become poorer in pockets when few of communists become more richer in pockets than before,forever??communism is something making less and less rich men more richer and more and more poor men more poorer??

-2.several ten years is your whole life to live,to breath,but billions years to be in dreams,to sleep after you die under the ground in your grave ,if I can say that it's just sleep,not die,when you are in grave will you regret you waste time when you are alive?will you know that you do nothing when you are alive but only being greedy lazy and siner by lots of lies,lots of criminals? Do you think it's still worthy to start or carry on and right for so fucking called great communism undertakings in your whole fucking life? Isn't 99 years for communism in China by 14 billion Chinese generation by generation for 3 times  enough when you want to use 65 billion human life in the world to last it more little longer?What's communism in history? What do you do for human being ? It's some bad ass when I get 100 dollar for one month donation for Chinese homeless cats and dogs it just locked down my China bank account and tell me I launder money.worthy? Yeah,worthy to be in helI I think.

-1.everything I do I know I experience  from the very beginning ,from parents who sent me to school, from me who was born in hospital,is for Chinese Party of communism, is because of Chinese party of communism ,not for me. For my parents, for who I love and who love me,by washed brains, by lies and betray, they promise to take care of us, but who my parents become in the end.they promise me to have a good future, but then my most precious childhood is gone then adolescence,earlauthorhood.now even midlife.making  and fucking 14 billion Chinese up is not enough,but want the whole world 65 billions human life to your victim .Chinese party of communism,go to hell.more life is suffered for existence of you everyday ,do you see that ?

0. I don't use parents' money which they tell me is for their future from ccp as retirement payments,for me it's money they sell themselves to ccp,even sell me.I hate them and these money,I won't be in peace when all of them disappear on this earth.

1. Biden groups pretend to give money to American for help but most of the money will pull into pockets of his criminals and communists.I think the number of these money is as much as how much Trump has dig them out from these assholes' pockets to American who deserve them by hard works and good belief.

2.love is that someone who like you can take care of you sometimes,
Some one who take care of you like you sometimes,

But love is love,like deity on Chinese culture which are called Fuxi and Nvwa which have snake tails with human body,could  You tell wether it means that Chinese believe in demons who are and like ancestors or Chinese are born with sins in bible ?

3.Perhaps to defeat your enemy is not for being your enemy,

打败你的敌人不是为了成为它.

Perhaps to be your enemy is to defeat it.

成为你的敌人是为了打败它.

But you are not your enemy ,I don't like to be it at all.

You just keep justice and mean to find the truth.

4.my parents always tell me that don't do good things,or I will be in troubles,my parents are Chinese who believe only black and white,when they say it,they always mean to do bad things,they fear punishments so keep doing bad things,sucks .cause there are always punishments for badass.do good things not exist when keeping bad things be done? Dreams.

Equal. For Chinese communism, equal based on the money in your pockets, not by your belief not For God.according to it China is abyss of power for America,not heaven.who pull and push America to fall in it is to kill it and it's wrong.

Honestly,for me most of life is not more real than few dreams.

Trump is some dreams which make me feel real.Trump fights for his families who are some normal kind hopeless citizens,Biden escapes from his families who are few special scared powerless citizens--same American citizens.Trump fight for loyalty for who he love. Biden escapes for betray from who love him.

The world is changing,everybody knows it.it's why trump keeps fighting alone for someone in dangerous-also-light status,Biden keeps escaping from them with others to be in safe-also-dark place.

Trump will be fine,it may be between reality and dreams,but at least now I believe it's still like a classical American movie: who fight for love live on happily with love,and who escape for betray survive badly with fear.and it's my honor and pleasure to watch it again,so clearly,happily and encouraged,

Win ? Win in wars? By fights? Win whom or win what , I don't understand or care.but I don't think Trump and Biden want to or will win the same things.

God ,I wish I could be in America to see everything happen there which I feel in China here.wanna help.could I ? 

God bless America,God bless Trump.

 I read some Chinese wrote that this election is strange Trump does best to be the next President and Biden does best to avoid to be.I think Trump wants America to be better , it's why he wants to be , and Biden doesn't want to hurt America more ,it's why he avoids to be.I'm depressed when I read Biden's is corrupted and Trump looks like have less votes than Biden.it makes me sad that lies are reported on news and spread on media like truth.I can't think this thing well without some details of movies ,but with movies I can't think well,neither.if they are friends and why they are blue and red,like water and fire.is it some way to confuse their dame enemy?

A cat cab live a long time when they are pets and taken care well,but when they are homeless and stray they don't live that long.what kind of lives can make a cat which can live 19~21years physicality have a 2~4 years life only.what they face alone?

Life is like leave of trees,from from growing to fall,something is too powerful to be understood but must be believed?

Deep state,if it exsits,is Trump part of it,mentally?