Cats with me,parents with me,everyone who should has left but is still with me,don't separate with me don't leave me alone,don't screw me up or fuck me off or hurt me inside,just because I can't suffer separating, I ask for others to betray me and lie.

I have to grow up.but why still feeling sad and lots of tears when I know it will come someday? Why it's going to killing me inside? why I can't stop crying for it? Cause everything will not get well in the end.

That's why for someone I can't be an actress or make good shows like expects of families and friends,but a very very very bad cam girl who must do many many many times sex?That's why my cat's lying in my arm? If someone doesn't dry off my tears ,I will be drown and killed by them by myself .That's why I exist? Cause I should not deserve it.

I told dad to heal his lungs first,then his nose will be fine.I told mom that if she stops thinking that she is taken advantage of everybody and stops taking advantage of everybody ,she will be healthy again.

Perhaps I aren't only sad that someday others leave, but also sad that someday I will leave them.

That's why I don't want to stay or stay longer.