[8_33,Nov 20]made dreams again.last night I dreamed that one of my classmate had a yellow code after taking public text of virus when mine was green.it's a dream which made me nerves a little bit.then this morning when I wake up parents told me that many neighbourhoods have yellow codes suddenly and need to do the public texts again today to mark sure they're not infected by virus.I checked mine, it's green.dreams are just dreams, not for me perhaps.

[5_26,Nov 20]love right ones and hate right ones for whom? Being good ones and bad ones for what? Am I too simple to think about it?OOr it'sjjust too simply for me to figure out.

Someone think BaGua TaiJi's a progress for turning, from dark to light ,light to dark, bad to good, good to bad, right to wrong, wrong to right. it's like a way to understand and know things, instead of someone who understand and know things like that.

I met a middle-aged woman in the vet when I spay a girl cat.She showed me photos that she adopts more than 30 cats and 2 dogs in her rent rooms and buy expensive food for them everyday.when I asked her what does she eat if she feed them so expensive food, she smiled like that she eats the most delicious food in the world,like her cats do.

I adopt 6 cats and send food and water for other cats about 12 cats which I couldn't adopt everyday and I could only give them dry cat food with little cat cans mixing together and still start to complain too much costs at home. She adopts more than 30 cats in her rent rooms and feed them expensive good food everyday but still smile at me when I care about her health only.

I help cats like doing kind things for the world, but she treats cats like her own businesses.being and to do good, right, kind or not,it doesn't only  mean it's unlimited to be and to do and I'm not good right or kind , but also means it's indeed none of the others' businesses but self's.it's kind of morality also.but never depend on how much money and conditions I make or have for them.

[20_40,Nov 19]There's nothing about 'America is heaven and China is hell'.on BaGua TaiJi only when Yin is hell, Yang is heaven, there's only one God, and only one demon also.so why the spot is in the black part and black spot is in the white part? Demon does its job to send bad in hell when God does his job to take good in heaven , too, why people still only love God when only hating demons? Where to set love or hate in it? Is God and demon same one with opposite sides? 

When you open eyes at night you see light moon, when you close eyes in the day time you see black sun.is moon sun? No.sun moon earth and me, God demon BuaGuaTaiJi and me,God is there when I open my eyes in the daytime, moon is there when I open my eyes at night, the black spot is not sun, but like a shadow of sun in my eyes,moon doesn't have a shadow in my eyes ,cause it doesn't light, when I open my eyes towards sun shadows are gone.demon exists, like God does. The black spot's gone, because sun shines in my eyes.perhaps demon is the darkness which's burned by sunshine inside of human kind,is the mark to tell God's always there, is the sin which could be only taken by sun light.