Cats teach me to love others, when they get food they become good to be my rewards. dogs teach me to love myself.they are good for food like rewards for themselves.
Brains which are washed aren't only being washed by communism.people whose brains are washed , their behaviours are changed also, habits, and lives. They obey more and more rules which are made by Chinese Party of communism and Chinese communism Party even when they don't like or want or need them but have to.and Chinese Party of communism makes them believe they are the only rules for all Chinese to obey in the world.they twist them.
I don't like my mom.she lies in her life usually, and her lies come from what she watches on communism TV news and her minds are lost by her favorite tv shows which are made by communists who have jobs to be Chinese actress and actors.she was so lovely a woman before.now mor she gets old, more frequently communism words she talks about.she's born in 1950s.like my dad who always is a Chinese communist still wanting to turn me into a communist, but never wanna to hurt my will. their birth year was one of the most darkest moment in the world.
Now it's more dark in China, but there's light already.Nothing stops moving on,and nobody gives up.is to be good enough?is to do right things enough?
No.
I believed that rules is meant to be break. Then I see Chinese struggles ,fights against and also deny the world when they are rules by Chinese communists themselves instead of communism only. Communism of China is the most worst communism which it's never been before.they fear to break rules, they are scared to be punished by Chinese communists, and it's difficult for then to step put of the communism line,because they think when they do it they will be killed.
When unnecessary rules can't be broken from inside, force of outside will.when people couldn't be turned into normal by words and media, force and wars will.that's the rule, too.
My mom was deserved to someone else's stepped mom and had a rich life with them, but she would rather to be my mother under the name of original mother than to be someone else's mom under the name of love.cause she loves herself more than anything else,and want the others to love her in that way she likes when she doesn't want to pay for it.cause she thinks I owe her a rich life and good kid and a good husband which she gave them up on her own, and means to make me become communists for paying her back what she loses. She thinks she loves Chinese communism only,that's why dad loves her. But only dad loves her, and she doesn't even have balls to think a little bit that communism is what she hates most.if divorce can't change her, what can do? With taking assurances every month she still think Chinese Party of communism is the only perfect thing in the world and believe China would be best than ever before.unless she dies she will never know and believe what she believes is what means to kill her life little by little, when she lost her first baby because of plan of population if I'm right,someone crimes become crimes ,because their nature or self-respect never allow them to admit they are also victims.
I send food to cat for three day'afternoon, because a woman with her man who do the same things haven't appeared for 3 days.when I got there, I see all cats including some cats which don't show up in the early morning for me and my food waiting on the windowsill for their visits in cold weathers when I was angry at the couple and delete her in my phone,they were hungry, but they didn't like to get closed to me and only stopped there looking at me quietly, I felt I was so ugly inside by being pissed off by the disappearances of the woman. love bases on time.who send them food love them and care them, they never forget whatever they love or care how others feel, whatever ways they are treated, or how much hard life is.they love ,not because who they are or what or how much they are given or could eat. They love in liberty. Although they are homeless cats, although they are hungry, although the woman only feed them overleft food which are garbage being asked from Chinese restaurants.but when they love, they are the most beautiful creatures of nature and God.I must misunderstood cats a lot.then I look at my cats again, I suddenly feel I never knew them before, never knew their ways to live, to love , to stay with this world until they leave, to be themselves.
They will be fine. so will be Chinese and everyone everything in the world. When there's love, there's life.
America is America, Not heaven which can't never be corrupted or disappeared.But China is China, Not hell which can't never be changed and destroyed, neither.
Force wars violence make people suffer, to make national systems which make people suffer more break.
Black is not wrong ,white or yellow isn't wrong ,neither. But darkness is.
Problems between me and my parents are not only because that they lie to and betray me, but also because of that they believe in and trust communism and its politics which I don't. I want and try to stay well with them as their kids natruely and never give up, so I never am with and stand by communism which seperate us apart mentally and spiritually by lies and shits, or even be with and stand by themselves for communists always until it breaks apart.Eye for eye, teeth for teeth,not only even for who are still alive,but also ill, hurt and dead.
Chinese should be a hope of the world, not the end.
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