{9-15,1-26,2022}

Ukraine is a trap.if Russia has already controlled it, it can or can't start any war in it like beating itself.it's a show to be paid for separating feeling of American again by nothing and making troubles for America and pulling it into worse status of Afghanistan.

{8-21,1-26,2022}

Russia starts wars in some countries every time when Olympic is operated by Beijing. Feels like Russia takes money of Chinese communism Party to do it, and Chinese Party of communism uses Olympic to continue and expand its plans. Yes, not only transfer attentions of America, England or Canada, and so on.cause wars catch too much attentions than the other ways indeed if it's only for covering up traps in Olympic.

Taiwan can't be a start in a war, but a reason for it.in Chinese book 'the art of war' there's 'to beat someone at their own game'.whatever who beat whose games, if the third world war starts this time, I don't wanna Chinese Party of communism to win still after it starts it by hands of Russia, like how much they make by making and spreading Wuhan virus into the world.even thought I don't believe Chinese Party of communists, but there are always someone believing them in their worst status which is designed by communists for themselves, like my parents.

{7-43,1-26,2022}

I took some fish cans back for him, except some dry food which isn't mine there for him perhaps, I call him again and he doesn't response.

I don't like political marriage, my parents still don't have a house for themselves but Trent communism military's apartment to live in rest of their lives and when dad dies it will be taken back and we would never have plenty money to buy somewhere to settle safely.it's hard for me to change them betraying Chinese party of communism when they accept places of it to breath.but it's not for me.comparing to service Chinese communism Party by my whole life and being with my kids and husband staying in communism apartment isolated, I would like to fight against it for service God to have a good place to live with them.yes,perhaps like what demon thinks and says, what I do is no difference from demon itself.

{7-01,1-16,2022}

He's already there at 5:32 when I got there where's the place communists parking their own cars. He doesn't wanna to leave in -9℃ early morning ,but ate little, not as much as before and looked being scared by something or someone, feels like nowhere to go and stay anymore, like I do.

I have built so many cat shelters as good as  I can by all money and everything I wanna and make and have.now I need a home, not only for him.

{5-01,1-26,2022}

Wake up at 00:34, and can't close my eyes again, don't wanna to be late again and don't wanna let the white cat when I close them, feel like if I close my eyes and fall asleep again he would leave forever.

I usually get there 5:40, in the past 3 days, he's always there hanging on for me. I wake up at 5:40 and got there 5:55 from the snowy day, he hasn't been there for 4 days if he's still missing today.

{2-32,1-26,20022}

I walked around where the cat appeared every day for hours yesterday by taking his food, tried to call him back, nothing showed up. I saw a cat showing up, but disappearing nowhere. I pray very hard. I miss him.I can't stop tears running from my eyes.

I put a mini camera in the corner there at 16:30, with water and food, although it could only works for 2 hours, I will check it 3 hours later to see if he shows up or not for dinner , he often shows up at that time for dinner every day.the food will be eaten, I want to know which cat does it, if he shows up or not.

God bless my little smart boy, and another girl is still missing, too. But she with her families has a shelter for them.even though she doesn't appear when other cats do, she's alive and I know , cause it's in her genes, she's like her grandma , which is the white cat being spayed last week and should has been caught and spayed 5 years ago when I met her for the first time , skinny,weak and ill. Her mom is spayed and fine.I plan to spay her and her little sister when spring comes.

I took 5 years to put her grandma in the bag and took her to the vet for the operation. When I met her grandma, her grandma was pregnant and her mom survives with another kitten. When another kitten grew up and pregnant and gave birth and missing, the last time I saw her was when she's so happy to try to hunt a bird although she's skinny but spiritual. I called her and she looked at me nervously and run away. I adopted one of her kitten which is Yoda, and another kitten from nowhere which is Caly. The other kittens disappear slowly without mom cat around there even though I check them and take food and water for them every day. 

Then before the doctor spayed her mom, she was pregnant and gave her and the little sister birth.and after her mom is spayed, her grandma was pregnant again,another two kittens which are as wild as their mom are to alert to be caught survive this year.

Too much ignorance, blames, misunderstood,curses, being laughed at and shamed and things happen when these years from the first day I cut in to take care of cats in these streets, looks like nothing changes, but nothing being perfect is perfect enough, to find home I need to lose my way first.Cats were like painful ghosts and being killed, bullied and played by Chinese there, now look clean, playful, have faith to live on and something change on them. They are and should not  be ignored, blamed or cursed or poisoned or sold for meat into Chinese restaurant like rats and blamed to catch rats and pick up garbage to survive as slaves by anybody when all cats have wild independent liberty nature hearts and souls and being themselves.I don't change numbers of cats in any places by spaying them as many as I could, but I adopt 6 cats. I know I can't save and adopt all cats, but I can change more and more Chinese for knowing cats, life's equal and God's love by myself.

I notice only love,care and respect could makes them feel good, it works on all life I hope.but when lights are more&stronger, shadows are more dangerous&darker.