{3-12,1-27,2022}

just wanna to hang over on the internet without communism and politics to take a breath. 

Then find out in my life it's full of 'feral' Chinese communists in China when it's full of 'stray' Chinese communists online abroad.some of them are 'pet' and 'adopted' and 'used' and even 'slaved'. But on every Chinese I could see logo marks and shadows of communism, even on some foreigners.

It's the only tragic whatever else happen in my life for me including rape.

To eat my parents' food makes me feel I'm eating my own body while being requested and shamed to thank them for it.cause whatever i give as being myself they don't like them, but only want a communist by myself whatever I pretend to be or not.

I don't like my life being designed, planed and controlled to be a good one or an evil one by and for God, or to be a believer or fighter or terrorist or 'gods' by and for Chinese communists. If my death is designed also by them, it can't screw them up at all.