I used money Mr fox sent to me buying two warm feather trousers which are 65cny and 80cny for mom and dad.mom said nothing about it and dad asked if he needs to give me the money,i know he's lying,he doesn't mean it.I told them that no,they dont need to.cause I live in China with them,a same country,if I was born and live in some other coutries ,I might ask my money back,but I know how is China,how is life here,how hard people survive here.I will not ask the money back,but they don't need to,neither if they don't like to do it.Why people who live in a same country which is called China bully blame set traps and harm each other to live on?Why even familes need to harm and threat and take advantage of and make troubles and things difficult for each other when some of them annouce that China is communism is bad and they will leave there someday  and they don't like this country and Chinese Communism Party and communism? treat them like that they never live in a same country but so called enemies for communism in America?what's wrong with this country?what's wrong with these people?

I waked up at 22:30 and lost sleep again till 3:00.I think over my past from 2002 when I walked in a communism college by frames of parents after a very very long tortrue in communism middle schools,no friends,no families,no love, no future,full of bully and traps,madness and fucking inequality.I should have started work that year,cause the results of communism exams for me in middle school was too bad to study in the communism college by being shamed be teachers and students and classmates.but parents didn't think so,they paid a lot of money to the college which charged them for it and when they sent me to it for 4 years communism life to be washed brain,they felt proud and honor when I was and looked so terrible and scared.I know they never be proud and honor for me,but for communism, for CHINESE PARTY OF COMMUNISM.for parents they are Communism's chilren,and also Chinse Party of Communism's parents,not me.I don't like it,I feel gross about it.and that day it's another day which chaged my life forever,again.

in that college I lost my mind,I thought I loved a classmate who looked like a Korean pop star.that period of time I loved street dances,and roomates watched Korean pop stars to do shows every day and night.I think it must effects me a lot,even till now.he doesn't care me,but only sexy body and money.everytime when he looks down at me,I felt there's something in my head to push me to face communism,to study it,then to defeat it.I thought it's love,it's positive power for me to be used.for me the only way to get closed to him was studying hard to get a communism permit for power and benefits in any way,then kicked him off as usual in my head when I defeat communism completely.but I failed,after graduation I didn't need to see him everyday anymore,thank God from that day I started to clean my mind.but love still continued,I was like someone who was poccessed or cursed by demon,studied hard to want to pass the exams again to study in communism colleges as philosophy Master.then after 4 years,I did,by parents' money and job again.he tried to connect me,I refused,he left with hates,I felt I revenged and thought everything was finished.

but next it's such a mass.revenge makes you feel sacrifice,but never give you peace.my life was like a boat in big waves of ocean at night from then on.i wanted a new start,after graducation again I decided to work on my own,anything i could do would make me feel well but stayed away from communism.but things never were that simple in a communism country in China.everyone lives on communism,when you stay away from communism you stay away from life but getting closed to death step by step,whatever they force you or you kill yourself.I found lots of jobs and,none of could last for 7 days.services in gangland resturants,cleaned floors in porn bars,introduces stduents who buy permits to have communism jobs in governments and companies to commercial Technical Training Schools which have deep connects with communism schools and colleges,and even Money Lender company whcih has or had a boss who is paid by Chinese banks to run the company.parents blame and curse me for being a loser.now I think of course I should.in these companies and jobs I would not be so far so good,I m not a criminal.Im glad that I'm still a loser for them like this today.

but at that time I didn't notice that.I felt lost when everything and people refuse and avoid me like a bad luck,I didn't notice that communism is so powerful here in China and control everything.nobody can be talked with,no money to leave and live, nowhere to go.even no ghost can be seen and be fought with.I wanted to kill myself,but I stopped myself.when i watched the ocean,I remembered that there's a cousin who played with me when i was a girl.he looked nice to me those days when i was a girl after 20 years,although I think he's ugly,I denied myself and told me it's my illusion,but it's a trap of his to pretend good,indeed it's an illusion that he's nice.when people become lonely sometimes they just want to catch anything to lie to themselves,become blind,deaf,whatever how much my heart tried to stop me,I still did my best to connect him,like bugs flying into the lights for being burned.actually most of time bad ass never gives up hurt and kill you until you are hurt and killed by them,or they are hurt and killed by yourselves.he's the only family who was closed to my age for 5 years,he was going to graduate soon and need to find job,also.I thought he might unerstand me and said some kind words to me at most.then I found him,but I judged myself too well,I thought  I got everything when I was a little girl and was right until he raped me.I never thought that he only was interested in my body,he seduced me.after the first time he requested a lot of time to do it again, I fear he would tell my parents and agreed,I ate pills every time to stop pregnant for 2 years which I thought it's my punishment for treating him bad and even thought he must be perfect and saint or somebody who know everything about me well,then I pregnat,I aborted it and I wanted to stop it,I understand it's not a game,but a very terrible thing.he becomes a Chinese police,and told me if I told his parents everyone in our families will have big troubles.I compromised.then parents found another communism job for me by money and corruption also.they sent me to Chinese army to work for communists and communism life which I have refused many many times in past 4 years.they finally did it,without knowing anything happen in my life, they are even not more than strangers to me.so evil, so cruel.

in 2 years I worked in Chinese armies and I felt I was in somewhere should never be on the earth.it's a wired world,which is isolated from the world outside and is so fucked up,more than what I see in communism schools and colleges.then I left there with lots of pressures from everyone who laugh blame curse and angry , worry and pity for my this decision.and I even don't wanna to talk about it,cause I dont know still how to tell it clearly today after 7 years.but I think there are two lines,if I don't love in a communism country or have any connect with communism, I will not meet anybody,not go to communism colleges,not be raped by family,not pregnant,not work in communism army,everything people do here is turn me into loving communism and communism Party,and when I fight against communism and Chinese communism i fight agaisnt the whole country and all Chinese and communists.only me.if I don't go to be a communist which is a hunter,I will be its food.make little money and be robbed by communist,and killed.either power or money, choose one to live or survive, breath or die.but whatever they do, any business of mine?I lost everything of mine because of what they doand don't do to me,do they appologize for anything?

when I do anything right, people blame and curse me,when I want freedom or liberty,everybody especially my governments charge it from me.they know they use these money to move abroad where so called enemies' countries in books,even in histories,they also know when they move there they enjoy and love lives of enemies'.what the fuck is that?envy?

when they rob my money,i don't like it,but when they have them to have a good life,i pray for them,but for it they raise up Communism China and Communism Party,even  communism,and call them mom,dad and leaders of them god.what the fuck are they doing there?arrogant?

mom loves money so much and even doesn't want to spend 50cny to have a hot-spring bath,or something like that.then blame me for it.is it my fault? and she also blames me that im not like someone's daughter who uses communism power by beling somebody in a Chinese company to get free tickets for her parents to take a public bath,it makes me gross and then she says that you grow up for free,how dare you don't pay me back for a 50cny ticket.you are too cheap to be raised up by me.Yeah, i know, she still keep me with her,because she just pity me,then i told her that she's not raising me up, she just pity me,then she gets angry more and more,and says im out of conciousness.and tried to stop me telling the truth.she says shee doesn't need her mom to take pains,is it why grandma is 91 years old now like a zombie? painful all the time when they blow it up high to the universe? only eat cookies and milk which 10 cny everyday can live 91 years old when her children have funs everyday and eat well and expensive food Sea cucumber which are 1000cny ? she doesn't need her mom to take pains , cause she doesn't have the mom? who the hell a mom doesn't worry about her child or children, only she does!only mom who pity them instead of loving them honestly!she's perfect? her fucking perfectness is sacrificed by everyone loves her! and she can still be proud of it,using ignorance to her weapons to hold everybody! and she also says you are 37 years now and still need her to take pains,fuck that and fuck her,fuck communism corruptions,all pains of mine come from her to hurt me and communism in her head, now she lies she takes pains for me instead of stopping hurting me,does she see how happy when she hurts me like this in the way she always does? her pains come from all systems of China and Chinese Party of communism,from this country, from this society,and she wants me who am in it also as a victim to take pains for her and blames me as a criminal who has all responsibilities of it.and curse me a betrayer when i tell them communism which hurt them all the time is evil and this country gets sick alread.they say I'm sick and evil for this country and communism,even for themselves . and they even tell me by washging brains to be chairman of communism someday to take their pains away by power of communism for extreme corruptions to stop being hurt by communism and this country.and what makes me feel worse is that they think the money i make by my hard working is so much lower than communists who sell their hearts and souls to demons by corruptions which i never take these dirty money in this way.that sucks.and what the fuck her brain is going on when she's alive?

if God exist,he's so mercy,give me heart and soul to love, to respect,teach me to love, to care.Bible is the first and only book which I think it has the most perfect logic in it.so I think it's either truth or best lies in the world.great,it's my sin.

when I refuse to have a communism life which mom wants with mom, she says when will she be benefited by a communism life from me or  take advantage of reflected glory of mine;when I share food and cloths which she desires,happiness of living which she should be happy for me also, she says she doesn't want it,cause she doesn't want to be benefited by me or  take advantage of reflected glory of mine by what I have and make;when I can't share what she wants,expensive travles,games,enjoyments and diamons she says someone who have children who work for Chinese Party of Communism can give all she wants to their parents,but she can't be benefited by me or  take advantage of reflected glory of mine for them.she never stop washing my brain by communism,to tell me how good a life when believing in communism by corruptions which doesn't need communists to work,only need them to rob the others who work hard for love and families,like what she does to me and she feels proud of it.

sometimes I thank God that she doesn't raise me up but pity me.if she raises me up, would Me still Me?if she raises me up, perhaps I m not who I am anymore.

It's stupid to think that the whole world only has two kinds of people who are only rich ones and poor ones in pockets,and expect how much money they have they are as same as myself, expect how much same they are from me to defeat them on my level.Even cat doesn't think like this.

They are too different from me,Money can't tell me anything about that.

And it's good for me,and i like it.

Chin builds a fucking national firewall for its people in China,looks like it scares of its own people on the earth only.it should,whatever these ones who they have changed in these ways,or those ones who they can't change by that.

Communism makes Chinese worse,Chinese makes China worse,China makes everything worse? It's truth,but not reason.

The reason is that everybody who worthships interests,honour money.it starts the perdition of China,makes the country China disappears and dies.

Chinese party of communism can't exist or live on,neither,without China .when China is dead, it's only responsibility of Chinese party of communism and communism ,none business of anyone who raise up and respect money and interests?when I read Chinese move to America and post that American food is cheap and delicious,American live is easy and free for them ,I just want to laugh.wherever they settle they are still communists,but just different nationalities.it's why they corrupt each other so deep so fast,whatever how long they live in different places and how much they change.

When the country China dies,Chinese? communists ? Chinese communists? The Chinese governments now work hard on keep Chinese communism survive,not for Chinese,not for China,it's stupid.it makes me feel 14 billion Chinese and all life in China are not more valuable than 90 million communists for Chinese Party of communism.it's gross more than eating flies.

Communism and communists are dried vampires which come alive soon when it connects blood.they desire blood to live.it's their nature.who keep them for interests and money which they live on and for are playing death.that's the only thing you should know about that.

sometimes I thought it's not fair that Chinese are prisoners of Chinese Party of communism in China working and fighting till dead for communists and their women men and kids who settle and are abroad to eat well and live alive.but then I think I'm wrong, do they?they are thought to escape from China which is crashing down and falling,perhaps China is, but are they?why China is falling when those communists escape and even leave earlier today by using the ways of Chinese to leave later tomorrow,is it coincidence?they move and go to America,not for a good right free awesome life, but for depressing using robbing and killing Chinese in China more.their power in China is going to crash down in the future. But in America they still have hope to make everything come back again.why?

China is done,in the future.but America has laws when everything is done to protect American.in China when Chinese Party of communism crashes down,everything is over, because Chinese Party of communism is the only law in China, and belief.what does Chinese have after that?do they still have laws,belief to protect themselves? They'd better have,at least for America which is the country helping them a lot in the past and histories.

In a tank when fishes are sick,water become dirty and poison.if Chinese don't change into bad,would China be like this?why Chinese turn into bad,who charge them there ?only Chinese Party of communism ? Or communism Chinese ?

Progress of corruption is for a person and a country to be communist and communism.which is cut in by communists and communism, like being beat by a vampire but not dead as food , victim turns into a vampire,it's not who it was anymore.once they become communists ,they will never become themselves again.

Perhaps not.money can't work forever.

There has been a very long time for Chinese to say something in this way when doing something  in opposite way.in an ancient famous Chinese book 'investiture of Gods' or 'canonization of Gods' there's a story,a demon turned into a beauty and tempted a king and made him into so bad to his people and country ,one day he caught a good captain who was reported to start wars to kill him as a saint,the captain was framed by bad ones.he said no,he didn't want to betray the king.but the king didn't believe,the captain's son heard that and hurried to meet the king for giving him lots of precious stuffs to the king for saving his dad.but the king had other plans.he said if the captain is a saint he will not eat his son,if he isn't a saint he will eat it.the king killed the young man and used his meat to make meals for the captain.the captain knew it's his son's meat,pretended knowing nothing about it ,ate them all and said it's delicious thank king,he was set free by the king,then revenge for his son and the king was killed.

Then I read another story.it says in history the king was treated as god,the young man who was eaten was sacrificed by his dad who's the good captain in the book when he's the first kid of his to please the king for his own benefits and power.

Morality is a very personal thing, one's morality is another's indulgence.it's not right to be used as laws or principles to rule and request everyone to follow and abide any of it for anythingt.in the end it will become communism and mafia.To control spirits and wash heads, make morality look like terrorism.but even terrorism believes some gods, and moralism, its followers in China, only believe in morality, morality is the law,it's god itself.when communism is morality, it causes corruption and fall,for communism morality is raising up.Biden's son has fallen, his fall is just because communism treats or pretend to treat him as a king by morality ,using the morality to control him who is used for being a vice-President's son.wash his head,make him a communist, inside of his head,body, like an invisible communism chains and uniform.if Biden still love his sin,he should stop thus collection and surrender himself by giving all evidences of him about China and ccommunism.if Biden still have consciousness of being a dad and feel he has responsibility for his son's falls, he should stop connecting with China and communism who harm and destroy life of his son and families , fight back and against them with trump and Everybody who is worthy for a try to do right things to stop China and communism thus time, a man who lose and doesn't deserve to be a dad or father can be a President of unite stats? I don't think so.

This morning parents wake up and cook eggs and.noodles for me, but I don't feel happy at all. They do this for what I give to them, not love, care respect and trust, but stuffs which I buy for them and on their bodies.I heard this winter may be colder than last years, so I told mom I want to buy a feather trousers for her.first she refused.then I picked up ones and showed her. She said she likes them and okay.I had no money till yesterday Mr fox sent me some money for my birthday.I must keep the promise on her and then she noticed that I hadn't booked the trousers till today and blamed that it's so late. Why you don't buy them for me.then she broke the promises to buy some fishes for my Birthday and said it's too cold for her.it makes me feel like they treat me good today for the pork and trousers I bought by my money. It's all lie.and they treat bad, it's lie also.I don't wanna to believe it. But it's true.see how do they treat stray animals and how do they treat me who help these little beautiful creatures of nature.

 I made dreams,in some village people are mind,but whatever they do including businesses they always lose everything including money by helps of who help them building the villages,hospitals,schools,museums.one of girls which is punished by her teacher in it when she is in the pool of museum to learn to hold breath in water to be something like agents ,cause she doesn't want to do it anymore,she wants to suicide.then she changes minds when she found under the water the door towards the forbidden zones where governments shut them down and stop them to be in.the pool connects to the zones and the water become falls in it where are castles inside.full of history about Soviet invaded that place and these luxary castles under the ground are a big grave for people who are killed in history.their bones even are there and they are not hurried well.governments hide the truth to rule this place.They lie.then cameras see her and three employees of governments take her away from it.a team of her friends including me are going to look for and save her,fight against governments.then the governments send teams to stop us,to kill,perhaps,including his ex wife.we bring what we can find to be weapon,I take my hand drill and ax with me,after we defeat some bad guys the leader's ex wife who's the boss appear ,but she says if we stop fighting she can take us to where the girl and exit are.I feel wired but still follow hher with our leader.our team only has two of us left.then he stops me who feel strange when he does it,I ask him why we don't follow her,he says more hope,more disappointment.then we take the opposite ways of hers and escape.he says she tells us to go higher to leave,so we should try go deeper under ground.then we meet her assistant to stop us there.I stick my long nail in his neck and makes him very hurt.I drop my key when fighting and I think I would pick it up when we leave there,then I wake up by dogs barks.then I remember there's another dream before this one,it's very uncomfortable dream,but I can't remember so clearly anymore,just feel that it's a very crazy and sad dream.

People say when dogs bark at night they see something which human can't see.I open windows to see if it's the stray dog which I feed to protect me,it barks times in the dark at nights around the apartment,but it's not him which is brown,I just feed him chicken livers last night,it's another dog which has white and black long hair and I never feed.then it leaves after I saw it, seemed like following something,still bark in a further place.God bless them,perhaps it's chasing a cat.if so,God bless the cats also.

Then I see it's 00:08, my birthday,it's a regular day.but starts like this, still cool for me. And sad.

Happy, birthday? to myself? Strange.

I dislike parents who make me gross at all.tomorrow will be my birthday. Mr fox sent me a good money for it and cats.It should be my happy day. I  planed to have some noodles with egg which isn't over 6CNY.then my mom says the birthday of kid is hard time of mom to give birth in it.she asks for food,expensive meat,which should be filled th of her big rice cooker ,for thanking her giving me birth .then I bought 100CNY pork for her to cook and her eyes look like starve demons starting at pure souls.I carried 10kg stuffs from markets and Wal-Mart on my way home alone ,feeling like carrying heavy stones,100cny pork for mom,9CNY milk for dad, 1.7CNY salts which mom asked for also,33CNY chicken and cans for cats,18cng orange and peanuts drinks and pancakes for myself, the shot ways to home from feeding cats are blocked by Chinese army,what the hell are all they doing on me? What the fuck is going on here ,why I feed cats when I need to feed parents?then I got home,when I say sorry I'm late for lunch,mom says what I bought for myself is too heavy,she means that I should not spend money on myself but need to save the money to feed her only,so it would not be so much heavy to me to be late by walking slowly ,then she says when she's young she also carried a lot,it's why she hurt her arms.I asked her who don't hurt self when being young for living on, even me who is working harder in it to take care of them now.does she still remember that she always keep telling me the trains she works hard for me when ignoring me is wanting me have a different life like hers,does she remember that she curses me to have a harder life than here when I do my best to have a normal one?then she's happy that I brought pork home and asked me if I had lunch or not,I said I have pancakes,then she says pancakes are garbage to ear,I piss off and told her all food which makes me full is good,they are not garbage.then I realize that she expects me too much and there're reasons that she expects me too much.more she expects on me, less thing she does for me.cause when she expects too much on me,I work more harder than I can do by being pushed for my love of hers to make me run out of myself,when I make it as miracle ,she treats it as normal things for  expecting more to push me more,when I cant make it but normal things ,she doesn't like to disappoint anything on me and just need to blame me for it.for her too much expects which I can't be or do,she doesn't need to feel guilty.they are using me,the day I can't suffer them is the day I leave them ,but when I have nowhere to go,no money no job,nothing to survive here because of their slanders,harms and curses around me like noises,gossips and lies,I m always suffering.Will I ?

I notice that there seem like some rules in American President collection these two times.only when someone refer to connect with China and Chinese Party of communism,they must fall and fail collections.Hilary does.so does Biden.why?

They both seem to take trump down who fights against China and Cpc in public.who want trump fail collections most.who will be most happiest person when trump fails collections,who will get biggest benefits when trump fails collections?in news Hilary and Biden who served or still serves Obama get money and benefits from China and cpc.a lot and too much.in business when someone get something from someone else,they need to give something else back . What do they have to pay as much as what they get back to China and  cpc ? Nothing ,and China and cpc don't want what they have to pay back,neither, but what they may sell, America, everything of America which they want and desire most from the very beginning where they send their relatives there by osmosis,to slip it off, to cut in, to own.They don't invest Biden and his families, but thus possibility to get America.

Trump is in their way,their enemy stopping them to benefit themselves,they connect each other  for own benefits, enemy's enemy is friend.but someone who agree admire and admit and cooperate even connect with communism can never use own things to do good things for the others,it's communism, communism is using any others' to benefit themselves.

If American don't vote trump,they are blind when they have their eyes wide open, if Chinese support Hilary and Biden who sell America to communism and China  for themselves,they have black hearts,and even no heart in their chests to beat alive.

If you are Christian American,who will you vote and stand by? If  you are President,will you keep your people selling the country for benefit themselves? Perhaps it's why they want power, to be next President and government ,so they can avoid and stop being punished and justice, by controlling rules and changing laws for themselves.

Perhaps someone still believe and think that communists can change,communism can turn into good things.they are mad,and wrong.when someone have nothing to believe in but only communism which takes away their everything including last dignity and force them to kneel for begging for surviving,they become communism,without communism how do they live?

Between a losing businessman who desire power and a losing politician who desire money,I would like the businessman to be the next President of America,for fight against Chinese communism which is good at using money to collect power,but Chinese communism has already cut in America very deep by power basing on corruptions of money , if it's God's will,pick up the only one in two person who both can't fight against Chinese communism alone ,what does He want?yeah, A Christian country talks with God,no problem and has fun by the points in politics,calm.clean and punish evil people,tell the truth about their criminals.make and repeat justice and laws which are right.it will be always safe wherever they go.

Trump services the whole country America, for good,

Why I feel like that the whole country fight against him? Himself and try to stop someone who stand by him to fight back ?

How much money Biden and his supporters can get if Biden become next President from communism ? I don't have evidence and never want to frame anybody.but I know how much they will lose , the whole country .

Laws are mercy,but never for criminals.God bless republic Party,Mr Trump,God bless whom do right things ,God bless America.

I talked with someone who donated me and cats on Twitter, and first he's kind,then when mentioning trump he starts to be so evil.it makes me feel that I'm so bad a person who born to be in this way when I think everything methinks about trump is wrong.he votes Biden.I support trump.It's the second time for me to lose someone who I think they could be my friends online.the first time it's someone called Sue.hmmmm,and I forget his name,don't want to mention it,neither.

Politics separates us apart,politics makes us together,why it's so power for us to make me feel so powerless,politics makes a fool saint,makes a saint madness.makes me a Chinese,makes me an American
,makes me everything it wants me to,only doesn't make me to be who I am.subversion, washing brains.who like to be alone in crowds,someone who will find his love soon, like someone who want to be lonely in politics,perhaps who will be with his families at his owe home early before retirement.And what they will vote and have supported are going to destroy their love and families at all.

Have to believe in Gods and trust him,or it can't explain all life which love us so much we meet in our lives , and it can also make sense on dead which passed by and were in our lives to be loved by us after that.cause they all are angels finishing their jobs and go back to heaven now.

Don't vote win, Vote right.

when I was a little girl my parents sent me to communism schools.everyday I was the last one to eat lunch in classroom which had 65 students. Cause I always used the same lunch box.other students who carried  lunch boxes to heat always put mine in the bottom.I don't know they called me slow-witted first or put my lunch box in the bottom beyond everybody 's lunch box first. I told dad yesterday  and just noticed that it's bully.dad laughed at me and asked do you think you are? I said perhaps , whatever they treat me well or not,I'm in a communism country,I can't sell my soul to them and I also can't save their lives, nobody remembers me when I get old and die for them.And they are responsible or have duty for their own behaviors and actions,not me.

Cats teach me everything after we meet. They know life is too short to hate,but when we love each other as hard as we can,life can be as long as we need and it could be.when I meet them, I feel my life is real.Or going to be.

I got the money. I called money gram of China service and they say it's another rule of China bank to frozen my card to get it.and they also asked me what the connect between me and who send me the money.I must tell truth,but I makes me sick to tell someone who even don't care me and my life my families friends  but only caring and protecting powers of who they care for own befits.

Dad asked me why I support trump who does his best to stop me who's a communist to go to America,if he wins I may never be there and my dream will never come true,to marry ,to give birth,to have rests of life with freedom,and start a new life.I say it's interesting that he starts to use his brain.yeah,I support him,it's my honor,it's easy for me to support Biden for me to go to America ,but this time honestly I absolute indeed don't think that much, do  not it for myself,I do what my heart tells me to do ,simply,my instinct and consciousness tell me to do, I think trump can be trusted to do this job for all good people in America.And I would like to bet it with all rest of my life.but actually when communism Party crash down,I just want to get the hell out of here.don't ask me why.

Being rich in pockets or not never be reasons to corrupt or not.cause whatever you have money or not in your pockets, you never can use money of the others to get what you want, when you don't have money to buy what you want,make it on your own properly,legally.

Moraliy is not about how much money people have,or capitalism or communism they are.I thought parents treated me well for communism when i was young. Now treating me badly for living longer.but when I see how I treat cats, I think there's love from bottom of their hearts, even when brains are washed totally, there are still something which can't be cleaned completely.honestly I want to go to America always, but with so many adopted cats which are with me, and stray cats to be taken care and feed, I don't know how to leave ,unless I die,perhaps.or find forever adopters and  homes for them all.make sure they have good future.,and I m still a communist,whatever a fake one or real one,either of them can make me being banned out of America.

Basing on all standards they do or don't do is that how much the others believe and work for communism and communists , Chinese communism is mafia/terrorism by national power of the whole country.will American democracy Party do the same thing. Mr Trump.God bless you and all of you.hope you get well very soon.have confidence to overcome all of it.